REBORN TO DIE!

MLM Sucker.

2012-02-02T08:30:00.003+08:00

Does this face looks like MLM is written on it's forehead? I think so.... This week has been full of "Meniaga Larut Malam" meeting. This evening, another one of "these" meeting.

I think MLM is not bad, but those people that is doing it, either they purposely or misunderstood the MLM concept altogether, actually gave MLM a bad name.

Some of the MLM decided to reinvent their business. As the word MLM is now taboo in Malaysia (if not around the globe), these business has become networking business, referral programs, e-commerce etc.

As I said, MLM is actually not a bad business. Why? Lets start, why WE all hate it :
1) Annoying PEOPLE harassing us to join or promoting the MLM. These same PEOPLE promised us the Earth, Moon and Heaven. Do we belong to this guilty group, or can we make a difference?
2) WE (PEOPLE) have to sell, to PEOPLE. Most of us rather be online in FB or other social online groups, chatting and wasting lots of valuable time. Even just reading other PEOPLE's update do take some of our precious time. Why not use those online social group to our advantage and make the best of our very very precious time?
3) Its a Pyramid (Scam) as told by "experts" (These are PEOPLE). Does anyone noticed, that in any large business organisation, there are more supporting staff then, executives? More executives then managers? More managers than General Managers? And perhaps only one CEO being aided by another CFO. Draw the company organisation chart and it resembles a Pyramid! My God, that company must be a scam! And do we noticed that the consumers of the product or service users of that company, is usually so large? And these PEOPLE only purchase and use the products, no chance of making some side income.......

I can go on and on..... maybe some other time. I have been doing MLM for so many donkey years. Made some loose some. I have been doing other businesses too, like car wash, eatery etc. Made some loose some.
My conclusion, not everyone can do business. Same statement for MLM. MLM is just another way of doing business. Even in conventional business there are cheats .... so beware of PEOPLE. Stop blaming on the business.

What is a birthday?

2012-01-30T10:56:00.003+08:00

I have reached a number that I tot, I wud have never reached, ever since I was 15. Well, I have surpassed my expiry date..... thats great?

Lets looked what happened to me since 2009.

Riding high in the corporate world in 2010. Only to be humbled.....

Lost my job late 2010. Still jobless till today. Now dont think that I have been sitting gracefully on my butt! I have been running around haggard, starting some food business. Failed or semi-cheated. He he he.... semi-cheated is a word I coined, after feeling being cheated by "partners" that do not have the intention to cheat u in business. But their action reflects so. Example: U invested some money and time to start the business. They even call u partner. But when the income is passed breaking even, suddenly, your partner do not remember, they have a partner.... I am left out cold.
So I have been some sort of consultant. And for about a year, actually working as a hard labor. It was a humbling experience. Burned under the hot sun, and drenched wet in the stormy rain. I was even a beach bum for about a month! Ooh some experience I got. Actually sitting and watching a couple making love on the beach a mere 5 meters away, passed midnite. And who says there is no topless sunbather in Malaysia? Not the type that lay flat on their belly, with their boobs hidden. This one actually flaunted her asset with her escort beside her....... Too bad, I do not have a clear picture. But here it is .....Still piecing up together what shit left is of me. At this golden age, even my shits has value.

On a brighter note, I fell in love on line. Not for the first time, but this one, got overboard, and went into my private life. Now am I in a mess? Lets see, so far I am happy....

An attempt ....

2009-07-20T11:25:00.002+08:00

The desire to write, yet the mind is blank.

Been listening to the old songs... trying to keep myself sane. Yet the depression is too much. Or is it just me?

Playing the life game.

Still blank.

I hate this situation....

That moment in time.....

2009-07-09T11:54:00.002+08:00

To blog or not to blog?

I am kind of happy when old blogging friend like Headwind comes by and say hello. The heart yearn to blog, yet there is nothing to blog, just feeling empty inside.

The past few weeks, I had headaches nearly every day. Doctor say it is migraine. Ermm... why now? Even now I am having this pain in the head, like the back of my head is being cut and open.

Maybe I should find the time to blog again. Just write whatever comes..... maybe....

Hey... I am not back yet! Contemplating....

Well maybe if I leave this corporate world, maybe then I will have the time to blog again.....

But then again, maybe it is just excuses....

Arrggghhhhhhhh!!!!!

2009-03-02T18:36:00.000+08:00

Arrrggghhhhh!!!!

The other day.....

2009-02-03T11:09:00.002+08:00

1) I was going thru a round about. I looked to my right, there was no car, so I went into the roundabout....... suddenly bang! I was sure there was no vehicle on my left.... apparently there was a motorcyclist who went into the round about from my left and cut in front of me.... Poor guy, he does not know what hit him! Serve him right......

2) Being a "victim" or being "responsible"? Anyone wanna share? Will talk about it soon. This topic got to do with a good friend of mine. Lets call him RES. Remind me ok.....

3) I am going into a 5 day training starting tomorrow! Yeah! I finished the basic last month, and I am doing the advance tomorrow! Hopefully in March I can do the Leadership Program. Yeah got to do with my good friend RES! Let us talk about this soon....

4) Met a millionaire and billionaire to be (She is the same person la). She drives a Merc Coupe. Was informed the car cost nearly RM Half a million! Man.... I can never afford that! Anyhow, I was so curious, that I decided to ask her what business she is into. Acting coyly, she says "sex". So my friends, who knows, soon I will be in "sex" business too! Hey KH want to join me do "sex" business in Singapore..???? Come on....

P/S: Will update more soon..... especially on "sex" business..... hehehe..... Who knows I will give income to those thousands that is being laid off.... ermm "laid" off.... Sex... laid... my mind is wondering to where many does not dare to venture!!!!!

LOVE

2009-01-08T10:23:00.002+08:00

After living for so many many years, I learn that we came to this world alone, and we will leave it alone...... Oh what does this got to do with the topic? Nothing, just me pulling the legs of KH, she hates LOVE! ( Or actually deep down inside her, she harbors the feeling, needs and cherish LOVE?).

I am writing about life.... yeah my life.... how I found it and got lost... over n over again. Today dont mind my England and writing... it is what comes into my mind. I want to dabble, rumble and nibble what ever is on my mind.....

So back to myself. This was what I learn prior to 2009 :
1) All things u feel is because of u!
2) All things happened to u is because of u!

On the topic of all things I feel is because of me! Let me elaborate ....
See, if I am sad or happy or mad or whatever la I am feeling, it is because of me.
For example, I was sad, some (lots of) friends lost their job last month. I stopped being sad, and focus on helping them in small ways. Give them encouragement, help find jobs, hulur some dough where needed.... and this month most of them are back on their feet! Yeah!
I was mad, because my lady friend could not understand me, and wanted to kill herself. For the first time, I decided to stop being mad, and all is well.... (At least for now, until the next cycle.... Awooooooooo Awoooooo, waiting for the full moon).
So, I realised, I cant control others and how they feel, but I can control mine. I am learning.... to control how I feel.... and I think it will be fun.....

The next topic, all happened to me is because of me! Ermm this is tough, let me try to make some sense....
Most (lots 0f) my friends were retrenched, but not me, even though I am the most likely candidate... as company rule, last in first out. Yet I was not, cause I work to make sure I was not. My lady friend felt or did what she wanted to do, because I she thinks I caused her to feel that way, and in a way I was doing things purposely to pissed her off, so serves me right!
I woke up feeling good or lousy, cause I want it to be. Or I loose money today, because I let it happen. Or the train knocked me down later today, because I was not being careful enough! So what if a boat rammed into u in the middle of a busy highway? Is that my (your) fault too? Yes it is..... whatever happen to us is our fault, and whatever happen to someone else it is their fault! Hehehe... confusing..... let me learn myself some more, maybe next time I can tell it in a better way. Mean while, those that agree with my rambling today may give comments, those that do not agree, can say it somewhere else!!!!

Hehehe.... it is not my fault what happen to u..... I am only responsible for myself. The way I feel and what ever happen to me.....

Have a wonderful day my frens!!! My lovely frens.......

Common Sense - Case Study II

2008-12-18T12:27:00.007+08:00

Is this true, what I am thinking? Tell me ok.....

Due to this car maker, more than 20 years ago, we Malaysian, can no longer purchase medium end automobiles at medium price!

After 20 years:

1) They still produce lemons. Sorry... they are producing better cars... but maybe 20% better than when they started... while other cars have evolved by leaps and bounds. Dont believe me, take a look at Honda City and Toyota Corolla 20 years ago and their equivalent model and compare it now!

2) They create plenty of jobs. Wow! But at the expense of around 50,000 people every month buying "cheap" but expensive cars. It looks cheap because we have to pay extra tax for imports models. The best part is, the same car is cheaper when we sell overseas! (Does not make sense! We Malaysian have to pay more locally, and we export better quality cars but lower price than local!) Now, there are in the news that the high end of this model, seems to be expensive to maintained.... that some state government is or going to change to more affordable Japanese models!

I am just pondering.....

a) If we have not embark on this national car, I think we all will be driving safer and cheaper medium end cars.... of course imported models, which will make some people jump on me saying that I am not patriotic.. .but hold on and read some more....
b) Look at the good side of more employment.... am I wrong to say, that actually if this national car was not born, the same numbers of jobs still exist, accept it is in the foreign (imported) car local industry... There will still be assembly plants for the imported models.... showrooms... etc.
c) Economically better with our own national car?? Ermm... I think we, Malaysian, have enough of subsidizing this national car! After 20 years, I am no longer proud of it's achievement. Sometimes I wonder... what achievement? Yeah I am driving one, not because of anything, but I can't afford the imported models... which if this car does not exist, I will be able to afford one. Am I making sense?
d) Is this national car a mistake? I think so. Look at the other national car, it seems there are doing a little bit better. Yet, I still believe, all national cars are not a good venture, after all, our population is (only) 26 million(Including the legal and illegal foreigners)! If it is really a mistake, can we please apologize and correct the mistake?
e) After 20 years, do this car still need government protection? Why not keep it as a memento, but let it be competitive with the other imported brand? Yes some smart Alex will say, other countries are protecting their automobile market too.... but look at how they do it. Better technology, advance machineries, superb handling... etc.

I think....

1) We should have a national product, but less ambitious than a national car. Some countries, make superb watches, or knives or electronic gadgets... etc. It still create a great economy and plenty of jobs. Be competitive in the global market. Better product should be sold to Malaysians, not sold cheaper to other countries and subsidize by local sales, which actually mean local are getting lemons and paying a bomb!
2) I love Malaysia, that is why I am writing this. let your common sense prevail. Just to look good, and you make your country men suffer? Yes, so many will argue, of all the great things that this national car have achieved (I wonder what? After 20 years, it managed to developed its own engine..... bravo.... to me it is like saying a chimpanzee managed to make it's own basic fishing rod, whereas, fishing rods maker nowadays have developed better and more sophisticated rods.)

My humble apology to those that still do not have common sense. Let all the bigotry be put aside. Have an open mind to all the possibilities to make each every moment much better in our beloved country Malaysia. Lets start to have some common sense.....

Common sense - Case Study 1.

2008-12-15T11:03:00.005+08:00

Yeah I have very little common sense..... but much more than some people.

Malaysia have the highest fatal accident rates involving motorcycles. Common sense says we have to focus on:
a) Machine - the motorcycle itself. We want safe motorcycles on the roads.
b) Man (Riders & pillions) - Responsible, understanding and educated in the ethics of riding motorcycles.

If we can only make everyone understand, small motorcycles compared to the bigger (in size and engine capacity) are more dangerous. Therefore, smaller motorcycles should not be allowed on the highways. Yes there will be argument that says small bikes can be fast on highways. I agree. Last week I was driving at 120 km/hr, and a small bike of 110 cc overtook me!

Want to know why it is dangerous? As these small motorcycles are modified to go faster, but it is difficult to make them safer. At 120 km/hr, no way in an emergency that small motorcycle can stop immediately or abruptly without it loosing control!

I am for the people high up to reduce the tax tariff on bigger motorcycle so that it is affordable for most people. So that we can have more bigger safer motorcycles on the road.

Focus on the education and training of riders are utmost important. Motorcycle giants like Yamaha, Honda, Kawasaki and the rest should take the initiative to educate riders using advertisements, campaign, seminars and on the road trainings and guides on safe riding. Safe riding is not about riding the motorcycles slowly, but to know one's limit.

There are more to it, but I would like remind myself and everyone, have some common sense in our everyday life. Make it beautiful and safe for you, and for everyone!! Have a great riding experience!

Loans and Friends.

2008-11-21T16:21:00.003+08:00

Which is more important to you? Money or friendship/relationship?

Throughout my life, I have given some loans to my friends and relatives from time to time. I am not a rich person, thus the reason I am giving my view on this matter.

From my personal experience, only 30% of the loans taken by my friends/relatives are paid back to me. This put me in a very grave position as financial is concern.

I come to a conclusion that whenever a friend/relative ask for a loan, whatever the amount, I will ask myself, how much am I willing/I can afford to GIVE them? Thus I will give that amount and nothing more. So when they did not pay, I do not really feel the pain.

Lately my life is getting better. I am loosing none of my friends/relatives.

Marking Territory.

2008-11-07T15:24:00.005+08:00

I was having breakfast the other day. Ordered "hot lemon" and "Tosai". Sat at a corner, waiting for the order.

I was actually bored, caused I can't surf or read my mail on my blackberry as the battery was nearly flat. So I was actually looking around that "Mamak" restaurant. My mind wandering. Ermm... Not so clean. A little bit efficient. The usual.

Suddenly thru the corner of my eyes, I noticed a cat walking by the payment counter. Something normal, have seen that scene so many times before. Nothing special.

Then suddenly, as the cat was passing by the bread stacks it peed!

It was actually marking it's territory!

Now suddenly I dont feel like eating bread for sometime. In fact my mind is thinking what else or where else does cats peed? Never mind.....

Just thinking out loud.

2008-10-21T09:53:00.002+08:00

Why not close a giant factory producing cars, because we are afraid that a few thousand people may loose their job?
The way I see it..... because of this factory, car prices went up more than 20 years ago. We are hoodwink into buying cheaper cars, which is substandard, and the one exported are actually of better quality and cheaper! And to save these people's job, more than 50 thousand rakyat every month must purchase this actually relatively expensive cars! For example the high maintenance of these cars as proven by some local government expenditures and budgets.....

Why are they so many cupcai on the highway?
Ermm... because it is a cheaper way in means of transport.... But are lives cheaper? How many fatalities everyday of this cupcai riders? Why should be bigger cc bike so expensive? Afterall they are more safer on highways....

There will be more whys.... and next time maybe I will elaborate more.... just my 2 cents worth of thinking.

Looking for my love.....

2008-10-16T12:08:00.005+08:00

You know I have always been looking for my love. Those sexy curves..... voluptuous body....

Man if I can get my hands on those..... the euphoria.

I have been dreaming all my life.... to be able to get what I really wanted......

Ermmm it will only be a dream.....

All that I ever afford was a Vulcan.... and a 500 Vulcan!!! I cant even afford an 800 Vulcan!!!!

Yeah I was talking about the bike!!! What were you thinking I was talking about???

Note: Thanks to Viviana Gallo for using her picture. P/S: I hope u dont mind.

It is good to be back to work... what work?

2008-10-06T11:03:00.002+08:00

Monday .. darn bloody Monday. Or is it black Monday?

Whatever it is, I am not that happy. Have been in a foul mood for over a week. Tried to overcome this nasty feelings, but it just get me down.

List of my grievances:

1) Lost the keys to my bike. Ermm maybe I will take some pics of me and my bike....

2) People dont understand me, or is it I dont understand people.

3) I am lost at work. Maybe I have been lost most of my time at work. But this time, I am ridiculously lost!

4) Over the weekend saw a monkey and wild cat got hit on the road. Guess these wild animals are lost like me. Will I get hit on the highway of life?

5) Pay cut! It hurts...

6) Love hurts....

7) Lots of broken promises.....

But again... is there a silver lining I am beginning to see... over the horizon??? Ermm maybe....

This life (whatever is left) must goes on....

I am back... gone.. and back again.....

Now I am lost.

Dear Policeman

2008-09-25T08:48:00.002+08:00

I think there are a few things that we should not be doing while driving. One of them is on your cell phone while driving. You should also put on your seat belt. Soon even the back passengers will be mandatory to put on seat belts. And of course, one should not be driving faster than the speed limit.

So, these are the three things that I think all of us should follow the rules by the relevant authority. Of course there are more....

It is just that I am a little peeved, cause a few times, with my own eyes, I saw our policeman breaking their own rules that they should uphold.

Talking on the cell phone without hands free while in the squad car! I have seen personally at least once. I was wondering why the squad car was driving slowly yet not so erratically swaying to left and right. By the time I passed the squad car, which I have to pass on the left side, as it was hogging the fast lane, I can see the driver holding his cell phone to his ear without hands free! Well must be his wife on the phone.....

How many times any of us has seen the occupants of our police squad car not using seat belts? I have seen so many times. One time I read in the newspaper, where a citizen complained about the police not using seat belts yet summoning the normal citizen that may have forgotten to put it on. I cannot remember which high ranking officer took the liberty to answer in the newspaper. His common sense in answering the question was that his officers do not use the seat belts because it was hindering them to take quick action if they should need to react fast on emergencies. Ermmm ?

Driving faster than the speed limit. Yes I agree in the line of duty, of course they should be driving as fast as they can. But I have seen squad cars driven more than the speed limits on the highways, without it's siren blaring or the lights on. Which to say, they were no emergency, yet they drove more than the speed limit.

So I wonder, why the double standard? So many answers came to my mind. But one stick on my mind. We human, when in authority, we fail to see our own mistakes, yet we can see every detail of the mistakes of others......

What you say?

Reborn!

2008-09-24T11:34:00.003+08:00

What seems to be eternity, is now here.

Maybe I am back? I am not so sure. But these itchy fingers are keen to write again.

Yeah have been missing all of you my dear old friends! Looking forward to make new friends.

Wish me luck.

The day the music died......

2008-01-17T12:09:00.000+08:00

Hi all, its unfortunate that I have been really busy. So I have come to a conclusion to suspend this blog until further notice. It is not fair, that I have not been reading your blogs and have not been able to reply your comments.

However, I am still reachable thru my email dade_ghost@yahoo.com and my Facebook, look for Dade Hantu. I dont know why Facebook does not approve the name Dade Ghost. I will be in Facebook from time to time.

I hope to come back blogging actively again soon. Meanwhile, please do keep in touch.

I will definitely miss you all here. I really do.....

Cheers. Have a wonderful life people!

P/S: KH join Facebook la.

What a beginning!

2008-01-09T06:26:00.000+08:00

2008 has only begun. But it has been rather exciting. However, I feel really bad that I have not been updating my blog. I am further upset that I have not been able to visit my friends blog due to my hectic schedule....... and partly Facebook is to blame! KH sorry.... can you join facebook... so that I can disturb you everyday like usual.

Work front, I am enjoying my new work. I am starting from scratch here. No permanent place yet, yeah actually squatting on some peoples table. But what is important, they gave me a notebook! I can be online.... Hey, they are sending me overseas next week... Really looking forward.

Life front, no movie marathon for a while. Sorry did not have time to update my last marathon, but I think I saw another batch of six movies..... I have been going back home earliest 8 pm daily, and a couple of time beyond 12 midnite. I still have to serve six months of probation at my new work place.

Love front, she is avoiding me. Intentionally, saying I got to concentrate on my new job for MY future, NOT OUR future! Life can indeed be a HUGE test!

Overall, I am please with how 2008 has started for me. A pleasant windfall have fallen on me. Looking forward for more.

My prayers to all my friends that life will be much better for all of us. Till the next time.

A short update.

2007-12-29T06:42:00.000+08:00

Well I am on a short break before I resume work in 2008. Have been keeping myself busy playing in Facebook.

Yeah have been busy watching movies too..... on Astro and DVD's. Will update more soon, I hope.

Was on a couple of short holiday trips. Will update some pictures.

Been also attending some funerals.....

Will be attending a wedding tomorrow....

Apologize for not updating and visiting your blogs. I hope will find the time at my new job......

Last, have a great time people, but take care not to be involved in any untoward incidents.

Marathon Man.

2007-12-17T08:15:00.000+08:00

Guess what? I think I watched not less than 5 movies.... yeah my mind is dull due to watching a marathon of movies over the weekend.

Let me try to recall the movies..... Hey do not expect me to remember the title or the leading characters.... hehehe... that is my weakness.... My memory is kaput...

1) I think it started when a man sat a bus stop. He saw a man about to kill a pregnant lady. He tried saving the lady. He even helped the lady deliver a baby, while shooting out with the bad guy....

The lady died, and the journey begins for him and the baby. It was about a crooked business man and a politician manipulating people to achieve their dream.

My rating it is just an ok movie. Watch out for the scene when he was making love, simultaneously shooting out with the bad guys.... and his partner climaxed! Hehehe...

2) 2nd movie about this killer. One bad tough huge dude. He was betrayed and his love life was killed by his own gang.

Served his sentence and bent on revenge. He was very focus. For a slow poke, well he was pictured as not bright, he does focus and planned well.

The thing that the movie was so obviously trying to tell is how, misunderstanding and miscommunication, can easily happened and result in devastating effect. In this story how the gangs that was controlling the drugs in that city actually wiped out each other....

I rate this movie as ok.

3) This movie was about the dragons. The story line was a little bit different, and taken from the folklore of Korea.

Awesome graphics for the battle scenes. A little bit sad. Very bad acting. My rating, it barely make it to ok. If your really are bored then watch this movie.

4) This one is about the walking dead. A man rescuing a lady in distress (whats new?). Lady supposedly have a cure to the zombie disease.

Very bad story line. Very bad acting. Waste of my time. This is definitely a B rated movie!

5) This movie also barely make it to the "ok" category. It gaves me a few laugh. I can say that this one is a little bit weird. Imagine what the game ping pong got to do with espionage?

Well as it is a comedy movie, it pulls thru. For those that loves funny movies, this can be considered a good movie. The cast was not so well known, except for Christoper Walken. Anybody seen or remember Chris in the movie "Deer Hunter"? "Deer Hunter" is a great ever movie!

6) Hey I actually watched more than 5 movies! It was a marathon.... and I aim to do that again during the long holidays this weekend! Yeaaaaaah!

This movie is a Thai movie. I think those who like fighting scenes, drama, relationship kind of story line, should see this movie. I easily picked this movie as the best for this week!

It is a story about friendship, how 3 friends from the "backwaters" try to make it in Bangkok. How two of them sacrifies for one of them to make it in the world. One even sacrifies his own love....

It is a fighting story, when most scene are good fighting cheoragraphy. Not as good as "Ong Bak", but still great.

It is an underworld movie in Bangkok. Be ready for some brutal killings and gory scenes. No nudity.... hehehe....

It is a very good relationship story. Story about sacrifices and what seems to be betrayal. There was even some romantic scenes.

It is a sad movie. I am not ashame to say I shed some tears.... Usually only Hindi movies can make me cry.... That is why I have not seen Hindi Movie for quiet sometime.

That is all folks for movie review this week. Hopefully more soon.

P/S: This is for Kuzz and all my friends. Watching those movies makes me want to write this paragraph. What I have written in this blog pertaining to my job have been true, accept for one thing. I was not FIRED! I resigned, as I got a better offer. Wish me luck people. Thanks for your understanding and support. Forgive me if any of you are pissed off due to my lie.....

Di Malam Syahdu Mengapai Pelangi.

2007-12-11T16:11:00.000+08:00

Mana bintang dan binatang?
Aku lupa gersikan malam
Di situ aral melintang
Impian kini karam.

Hujan rebah membanjiri danau
Melimpah ruah batasan ranjau
Jiwa lemah penuh kacau
Membikin ilmiah fikiran yang sasau!

Mana pelangi?
Di malam sepi....
Mengapai mimpi...
Tanpa mentari
Di malam syahdu ini
Pelangi telah pergi!

Peka ruhani kekeciwaan
Membusut satu harapan
Kecundang menjadi lawan
Meluap sebutir perasaan.

Tunggu sejenak
Hasutan api berpihak
Ada kala tersentak
Perasaan membengkak.

Tunggu lagi
Di malam syahdu ini
Kita mengapai pelangi
Mustahil tidak berperi.

The Fat Lady Sings.

2007-12-10T11:41:00.000+08:00

The verdict is out. The management is kind enough to give me until the end of this month to pack my things.

Looking at it from a positive side, Hey! I can look for a better job!

Let me try to remember how many jobs had I held all these years. ERmm.... 5 jobs. Not bad. I have gone thru the mills. Up and down..... There were times that I was really in deep shit....

But now, not really. I am still standing. In fact when you are down there is no where but for you to go up. And up I shall be.

These few days, or maybe weeks, just tolerate my "merapuness" ok? If my post seems to be short, I guess you all know why...... Expect more of my ramblings....

From my office room.

2007-12-06T17:49:00.000+08:00

Misteri Pelangi.

2007-12-06T14:50:00.000+08:00

Hujan malam menyepi tersisih
Mentari pagi gelap berkabung
Hujan panas mendidih
Mentari sehari suntuk murung.

Gemersik alunan sedu menyinsing
Bagaikan kesepian halimunan malam
Punah madah yang berpaling
Mengubah keheningan alur malam.

Hujan ribut tersentak disiang hari
Menanti....
Pelangi.
Indah sekali.
Penderitaan berakhir kini
Pelangi yang datang dan pergi.

For Every Beginnning There Must Be An Ending.

2007-12-04T08:19:00.000+08:00

Looks like this week, my status in this company will be made known.

What to do? I have not even finish "decorating" my new room. Actually I wanted to put a mirror on the pillar that was bloking my beautiful view of Kuala Lumpur.... looks like it will never happen.

I will try to take pics from my room and post it here when my "verdict" is confirmed. I have to admit I like the view and beginning to like this new place.

However what the outcome, things must go on. Will update again, when the picture becomes clearer.....

Cheers.

Salah siapa?

2007-11-29T12:14:00.000+08:00

Titian usang ku rempuh
Kayu usang yang rapuh
Hanya harapan yang utuh
Dan aku tersungkur jatuh....

Karena jurang terpisah
Hidup muda penuh kerenah
Aku tersadai lemah
Di titian usang berdarah.

Pernah kalian terfikir?
Hancur punah tersingkir
Adakah di sini berakhir?
Penderitaan seorang fakir.

Kelibat haram durjana!
Mercu hina penuh tanda
Kaget halilintar bersuara
Mengugat anak telinga.....

Kini hidup ku sayu
Meratap cinta yang kaku
Memendam rasa keliru
Cinta agung mu kan layu....

Berdosa kah jiwa ini?
Tersentuh meratap diri
Kehilangan rasa di hati
Ghaib di alam misteri
Lenyap sunyi dan sepi
Hanyut dibuai mimpi ngeri.

Berdiri aku di sini lagi
Aku masih seorang diri
Terkenang manis di sisi
Rentapan janggal menuding jari!

Berdiri aku sekali lagi
Mungkin untuk terakhir kali
Pandangan dari satu dimensi
Meledak nanah hati yang benci!

Berdiri aku seketika lagi
Alunan indah bisikan melodi
Indahnya mentari pagi
Lelap hidupku berakhir kini.....

Facebook.

2007-11-28T06:30:00.000+08:00

I have been on Facebook for a while now.

I do not understand, they do not allow me to sign up as Dade Ghost. So I had to signed up as Dade Hantu!

I am not addicted to it yet... and it is time consuming. Still looking for you guys... hehehe.... found some of you. As it is time consuming.... I am not there most of the time.....

Hope to add most of you as friends in Facebook.

To those addicted... have fun....

Children : Please do not do it at home.....

2007-11-26T09:16:00.000+08:00

Case I

As usual, when I have nothing much to do on weekends, I started to repair some faulty or not up to standard electrical appliances.

So last Saturday was my hot shower turn. It has been dripping as though something was stucked somewhere it the piping. Just a few months back I had opened up the piping system and the hot shower itself.

It seems that the water supply actually carry lots of small miniature stones, which will get stuck in the piping system, and in the hot shower itself! So I have done the cleaning a few months back, including the one at my kitchen sink. All clogged up by the water supply, which led me thinking, what is happening to our water supplier?

This time around, I think I was over confident, as I have opened up the hot shower previously.

All went well, actually found out the problem. Eventhough, I only found the cause after dismantling the plumbing and the hot shower unit! Apparently, the gasket in the shower head was worn out. Changed the gasket, and the shower was back to normal. Ermm... First lesson, check for worn out components before doing major dismantling.

As I was about to put back the cover of the shower unit, I realised there was one pin, that I have forgotten to put back. NORMALLY, I would have switched off the main power supply, but as I was over confident and lazy, I thought to myself, it is just a small pin that I have to put back.

So I just slide back the pin..... For a fraction of a second, there was a sharp pain in my finger! Instantly I pulled back my hand. In that split seconds I realised, what a stupid action I have done.... RULE NO. 1 when opening any electrical appliance: There must be no power supply to it!

Such a small action, and yet, it could have been the end of my life....

Case II.

Any of you guys have gone to IKEA? Going out from IKEA going back to Taman Tun Dr. Ismail, you will have to drive to the highway. From IKEA there will be three lanes. Once you about to enter the highway, it will merge into one lane!! Anyone noticed that???

As I was happily driving to office this morning, going thru that stretch of road, I noticed a lorry from my rear driving very fast on my left. As I enter the bend that merge with the highway, on the left most lane of the highway, I can see a proton driving fast on my right!

I slammed the brake, luckily there was no car right behind me! The lorry passed by happily and turn into the highway. The proton passed by happily cutting right in front of me going to the left towards the entrance of the highway to TTDI, Bangsar and Federal Highway...... (Notice that I know where the highway was going, but do not know the name of the highway? Well thats me! I only know Federal Highway.).

Boths vehicle was right behind me on my left and right. Why la they can just let me passed? Stupid road. I wonder who designed that stretch of road? I wonder how many near miss accidents? I wonder how many accident has taken place there?

So, I drove happily this morning to work.... I am glad, I am still alive and in one piece. Thank you God.

Boo Boo Part II

2007-11-22T10:01:00.000+08:00

Dang@@!!! First round of negotiation, I hit a wall. First time I was using a not professional approach on company matters.... and yeah ... it blew back on my face.

Today round II of negotiation. Will stick to the agenda, focus on the real matters and see what happen? I am just getting use to my new room and new comfortable chair.... but my 6th sense is tingling that I will be in deep shit....

Well I have been in deep shit before....

In fact, I thought my head and mind gonna hurt thinking about this issue, but it did not!

Well I am just gonna try my best, if that means I got to find a new job, then that is what I am destine to be... hehehe....

When it rain it pours. It pours dogs, cats and summons..... RM 230 gone in 30 seconds early this morning. One speeding and one parking ticket! I find it funny, if I pay early, discount 30%. If I wait a few years, they might reduce 50% to 70%! I was driving company car and doing official work, yet I have to personally pay the summon. Maybe got to negotiate with the management.....

I pray that the rest of today will be much better. Let the bed of roses has less thorns.... better still, bed of roses with no thorns.....

Boo Boo Wachamacallit.

2007-11-20T05:31:00.000+08:00

After 9 pm last Friday.

My phone vibrated.... (Yup my phone never rings....)

Me: Hello.
Wachamacallit: Inspector so-n-so from so-n-so.
Me: Yes how can I help you....(Thinking inside my head, who is trying to pull a fast one on me....?)
Wachamacallit: Is that DG from so-n-so?
Me: Yes inspector...
Wachamacallit: We received a report that your company have ......... blah blah blah...
Me: Really inspector? Our contractor must have done it without realising it.... (Now what? Is this real or what? The inspector was actually stuttering ...)
Wachamacallit: Please call back the authorities involved and the complainant. My advice is for you to settle the matter amicably.
Me: How do I get hold of you after this? Can I call you at this number?
Wachamacallit: You may call me at this so-n-so police station. As for so-n-so.
Me: Thank you inspector (How come I am so cool, but the inspector sounds so unlike a policeman?)

So the next thing to do was to do some simple checking with my supervisor. Ermm... it actually happened. I am lucky I did not berated the not so confident inspector.

Tried to settle the matter, but to no avail. The reporting party would not take my call or return my smses. Boss gave me 48 hours starting Monday to settle the matter. I have less than 24 hours left.

I wonder what is in store for me today? Bed of roses, beautiful, but full of thorns...

Tag of love? Hehehe ......

2007-11-16T05:36:00.000+08:00

Was tagged by KD! Hehehe!

So now this is how it work.

This linky love trail rules: When you got tagged…you have to add your name to people who had done the tag and and let the list grow!

Those Who Dunnit

Limadang.com
RamblingMoo.com
blogginginmypyjamas
StylewithPassion
Chinneeq
Dora-zooropazoo
Babyshern
Bani gundu
Frankensteina
Diyanazman
Farah (KD)
Dade Ghost

And now I am tagging all in my friends list that has not been tagged!

P/S: KD I am just doing this for you!

A Kampung Wedding

2007-11-15T05:32:00.000+08:00

Had a wonderful weekend, but.....

2007-11-12T09:13:00.000+08:00

Congratulation to my sister. Her wedding reception was during the weekend. After breaking off from her first engagement, finally for the second time of engagement, she got married....

I had fun. I was at my kampung since Saturday. So many of childhood friends and relatives were there. Lots of stories and memories. Overall I enjoyed meeting all of them...

So happy for my sister, finally she is off my shoulder! Hahaha.... u know la when my mother passed away, I am like the father. At times during the reception, I actually refered myself as "Abah" to her....

Yup it was tiring, but then again worth it.

Left my house for two days. I reached home about 8 30 pm Sunday. Looked for my kitten, it was no where in sight. Called and looked everywhere, it was gone.... I can feel how I felt when father died. I could not accept it then. Took me more than 5 years to come to term with his death....

Now my kitten is gone.... What a damper to a great weekend!

Belasungkawa

2007-11-07T08:44:00.000+08:00

Belasungkawa : condolence; expression of sympathy.

The more I want to learn Bahasa Malaysia, the more I find weird and funny words. It is intriguing to me trying to find where these words were originally from. Most were from sunskrit with a mixture of arabic.

Anyhow, how come I have never heard or seen, anybody wishing someone, "Belasungkawa untuk keluarga awak, di atas kematian si ...." ?

Have fun using this new word. I feel the word is so ancient....

MPD First Monday Of The Month.

2007-11-05T16:35:00.000+08:00

Why la I choose Monday??? Never mind, I will start with the MPD. Actually, nothing much la, I have been doing very little good deeds....

MPD

1) A cat gave birth to two kittens in my storeroom. One red and one black. Decided to help the mum and two kids have a better place to live. Put the two kids in a nice cute box, cushion with old rags. I was sad after two days the cat and kittens went missing.

2) Three days later when I got back from work, I heard a kitten meowing so loud. Saw a red kitten in between a banana tree. I dont think it was the twins, cause this one is about a few weeks old. The eyes had opened. It look so pathetic. First look, I thought it was going to die soon.

Took it home, fed it water. I dont have milk. Only the next day I managed to get milk and cat food. The kitten looks like it was going to die. Surprisingly, a few days later it was running around! Poor kitten, I can only feed it once or the most twice a day, before and after I go to work.

3) Gave training to my colleagues for three separate days. Nothing much, just to give them some idea, there are choices in life. Make them understand, we can only decide upon what is in our control. Thus it is best for them to focus on their part, rather than worry on things like the weather, or what the president of America going to do next.....

Already get approval from the management to give further training. I am having fun doing the so called training.....

That is basically it that I can remember, other than the small small things that I have been doing since last month. I hope you readers do your part to make this world a better place to live.....

Now comes the Monday blues part.

1) Flight was delayed and I arrived home at the early hours of this morning. What a start to a Monday?

2) My first day (actually November 1st, but they send me outstation) of work at the new place. Ermm.. I purposely did not blog about it... hehehe.... wish me luck people... I went in at about 11 am! Not my fault, the plane was delayed.....

3) The managers were giving me a hard time. New place, so they are testing me I guess. So far I have kept my cool.....

Lets see what tomorrow brings? A better life ...

Detik

2007-11-02T05:44:00.000+08:00

Titian insan tersergam malap purnama
Penantian kehilangan masa
Keinsafan taklimat dunia
Berapikan pendekatan manusia.

Siapa kata kecundang dusta?
Merana meratap pemergian maya
Insaf insan terkedu bahasa
Melawan badai umpama perkasa.

Atok pernah bermadah
Tenaga cucu perlu dikerah
Wajah rakyat bertukar merah
Perlukah bumi ku pijak berlumuran darah?

Apa itu kesetiaan?
Jika penuh penderitaan
Sudah puas keperitan
Tiba detik satu perjuangan.

Kita leraikan yang kusut
Kehendak Raja kita turut
Kita dermakan harta pesaka
Kepada Raja derhaka
Kita teruskan perjuangan
Untuk Raja bermimpi keagungan......

Aku hentikan detik ini
Bukan kerana benci
Kerana tanahair ku yang suci
Dan suratan takdir ku begini!

Once upon a time when I was small......

2007-10-31T08:16:00.000+08:00

Everytime Hari Raya, I will remember my childhood days. Both my parents have long gone. Thus I think Hari Raya will fill me with nostalgia.....

I have not thought about it for so long, and I can hardly remember the memories. We lived in the village. I was maybe about 6 years old then..... hehehe.... yeah I am really old! Electricity just came to our village then....

So being so called a better off family, we had the first television in the village. This was what I vaguely remembered.

On every Friday night there will be many of the villagers coming to our house. Some came early, just after Magrib. Those who arrived late will be sitting at the veranda. If I am not mistaken at 8 pm was the malay movie playing.

If it was a good movie, the crowd could be more than 30 people, on average it will be about 20 people. I remembered watching those movies on the lap of my late mother. Those were the days.... so simple.....

After the show, usually after 10 pm, they will all leave, some rode bicycles. I noticed that most of them will handshake my mother, giving her 10 cents.... and I saw some living 5 cents at the veranda railings.

That memory haunts me....

Looking.....

2007-10-29T09:52:00.000+08:00

Why?

2007-10-26T10:30:00.000+08:00

A girl age 15 plunged down 13 floors......

No matter what was reported in the daily newspaper, I still do not understand why? A lot of questions raced thru my mind.

Are there similar cases in Malaysia?

What are the numbers?

Is the percentage alarming?

Anything being done?

Who we can turn to?

And many more questions.......

To all my friends in this cyber world, I pray and hope, if any of you(or someone you know), ever think of doing something in desperation, please take your time to email me at dade_ghost@yahoo.com . I am not promising anything, but I will definitely read and listen to your issues. If needed I may be able to give some suggestion to overcome your predicament.

There are no issues in this world that has no alternative solution, accept when death come knocking on our door.

Have a great life!

P/S: I pray that the 15 year old will recover fully and love life as it is.....

Tanjung Piai Slide Show

2007-10-22T09:18:00.001+08:00

A trip to Tanjung Piai.

2007-10-17T23:42:00.000+08:00

I just got back from Tanjung Piai, Johor. It is somewhere near Kukup. Nothing much, but I was bored during the Raya so I just decided to go there.

I am still too tired from the journey. I hope to post up some picture or maybe some short video I took. Well let see if I can upload those picture on my notebook.

Should be getting back to work. Again see how. I might skip another day. It is getting too edgy on work front. The Raya break gave me some idea on what to do, if I really have to leave the current job.

I pray that you all have a safe and pleasant journey back to your home, from wherever you were from. To those that are already at work, we that are still on holiday are very thankful. Next year we hope to exchange places with you all (tough luck! hehehe).

My Pride Day (MPD)

2007-10-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

You see, all my life I have been more bad than good.

So I have been thinking, how can someone as small as me (compared to the universe of God) make an impact or good changes in this world?

So I did little little things, like

1) Smiling to my neighbor.
2) Helping the blind crossing busy streets.
3) Saying thank you to all that gives me anything or render me services.
4) Picking up a puppy trapped in the drain.
5) Giving talks and advice to unfortunate kids.

and more little little things. I think you all get my drift here. And lately I have been thinking how can I do more? All this while I have been blogging, and friends have asked me to do some sort of tag or another.

So I am just thinking, why not start a tag? After consulting KH (Kucing Hitam @ Black Feline) she suggested MPD. Thanks KH I really appreciate it. I am hoping you will be the first one to do it. Guess it should not be a problem for you.

Will start with some simple rules.

1) Choose a day in a week or month or year. On that day, you will write all the good things you have done, may it be small or big. Small like the one I did and wrote up there. Big can be like donating RM 1 million or setting up a home for the orphan.

2) So the tag will be ongoing. Lets say you choose to do it every first Monday of the month. Then on that Monday you will post on your blog what good deeds you have done for the month.

3) You may tag as many you like. The more the merrier. Make sure you copy the rules and put it on top of your post.

I guess those are the rules. Who am I tagging? All that is in my friends and read list and those that do drop by here to read my blog.

The idea is to make our life a little bit better, starting by us doing and feeling great about our life. Promote this to others so that this little little things can go a long way and make a bigger impact in our lives.

If you care about all the miseries in this life, than start doing good deeds no matter how small it is. My hope is that this tag will travel all over the world, and make someone happy and maybe save a few souls.

Do your bit now!

I am choosing the first Monday of the month for my MPD starting 1st October 2007.

Hope it is not a burden for all of you to participate and be a part of making the world a better place to live.

P/S: I will be promoting this tag for 15 days. So my new post will be below this post.

Selamat Bercuti Dan Selamat Hari Raya Eidil Fitri.

2007-10-12T09:49:00.000+08:00

Before that I want to tell you all what I learned this morning. I used the microwave oven a lot. Even to cook or bake or just to warm up left over food.

This morning I wanted to bake my big juicy curry puff that was made in Singapore. So I took it out from the freezer and put it in a container that says microwave oven friendly.

Then I preheat the oven. When preheat was done I set it to bake for ten minutes. Shove the container in and press the start button.

I tried to take some 40 winks. Woke up when I heard the microwave bell indicating that the timer is done. Half asleep, I can smell something burning. Behold, the container actually melted!

So I learn, that baking in a microwave oven, one must use baking utensils. Microwave friendly containers will melt if you bake or grill! What la, after so many years, only this morning I know......

Wishing you all a great holiday, and "Selamat Hari Raya Eidil Fitri". Do have the heart to forgive me if intentionally or otherwise, I have in any way done any of you any wrong....

Have a wonderful and safe journey for those traveling.

Isn't it great to lead a wonderful and fulfilling life? Pray that all our deeds and fasting is accepted by Allah. InsyAllah.

Pay It Forward.

2007-10-08T08:40:00.000+08:00

Pay It Forward was a book written by Catherine Ryan Hyde, which was later made into a movie. Pay It Forward Foundation was established later to champion the project. Please refer this article in Star 6th October, 2007.

Honestly, I have not read the book, nor I have seen the movie, but I have heard of it before. So as I happen to promote doing deeds and kindness starting this month of Ramadhan this article grabbed my attention. If they can start a foundation, caring Malaysian can start one too. Caring Malaysian can be better.....

Let me elaborate on what I did,

1) Smile to my neighbor. This happened I guess it was because of the Adik Nurin tragedy. We should be more kind and getting to know our neighbor(s), especially if they happen to be one sexy lady.....

2) Helping the blind cross a busy street. It happened in the jam in Jalan Raja Laut. A blind leading a blind, got confused when they were trapped in-between two vehicles. I just happened to be there are the right time, and guide them to the other side of the street. To the vehicle that stopped right in the middle of the pedestrian crossing, sir and madam, please have heart to the blind....

3) Saying thank you. It is becoming a habit, saying thank you, to the toll collector, to the person taking order in the fast food restaurant, to whoever that is kind to me, especially if it is a pretty lady.... hehehe....

4) Picking (saving) up a puppy from a drain. For two nights in a row, I can hear a dog barking every time I came home late..... then on the third day I came back early. I still can hear the barking. When around to look for the dog, a few meters away I saw a puppy in the drain, at a ledge looking tired and hungry. Three days stuck in the drain, luckily it did not rained! I was unsure what to do, finally took a thrown away plank and elevate the puppy out off the drain.... it ran away immediately.. at least it was still strong...

5) Giving talk and advice to unfortunate kids. This has been my project for more than 7 years. I was from a poor background. I can relate to these kids. Most of them, actually are from family background that cant even afford a proper school shoe. So, some of my friends they look after the financial needs. Me, being also, "just enough", gave my time for them. Not much just once a month on the first Saturday. This might be my final year.... need to get some other people the chance to take my place... and I am thinking of making something bigger.... maybe giving talks and advice to teenagers that are facing issues in their life.... maybe...

Well, will be doing other small small things like what Pay It Forward is doing.... paying meals for strangers, washing strangers cars, etc.... But as everything is limited for me (time, money, etc) I just stick to smaller smaller things first....

As 15th of October is my birthday.... Yeah! I would like all of u that reads this, do something good on that day.... Yeah for strangers like me..... I will be grateful if all of u do good deeds to strangers as a gift for my birthday....

P/S: Just for your info, I do not celebrate my Bday, because I do not want to, and we were poor.... but now, I want to do good on my Bday.... and I hope all of you will too, as much as possible... Make our life better by helping others to make their life a little bit better..... Hehehe... I am writing too much today!

Who is that?

2007-10-03T10:25:00.000+08:00

On Sunday I received an sms from a friend. It says something like this,"Waaa DG now you are into advertisement? Since went you become a model?".

Then five minutes later another friend called up.

Friend: "Hey, I was watching TV with my gf, and she asked me, isnt that your friend?"

DG: "Huh?,what you talking about?"

Friend: "Hello friend now you are a model, jangan sombong la...."

DG: "Hello friend, tell the story from beginning...."

Friend: "I was watching TV, during advert we notices one of the character looks like you. So I watched carefully, and yes I am convince it was you!"

DG: "No la, I should know better..."

Friend: "Hey it was you la! You being modest...."

DG: "Trust me, it was not me..."

Friend: "Ya la, come to think of it, that guy seems to look younger"

Hehehe... that was fun to me. When I was in Indonesia long ago, the hotel receptionist stopped and questioned me, "Bapak pembaca berita TV Nasional?". The moment I talked he knew I am not local, so that answers him. But he kept insisting that I really looked like the news reader.

Then when I was in Indiana, Bloomington was it? I really cant recall. A Malaysian stranger actually got hold of my arm and pulled me to meet a guy. When we were face to face, he said "Sorry la, but I just have to do this, dont you two look so alike?". To be honest, I dont think so, but the people there thought so!

Someone told me long ago, there are seven people that looks like you. It must be true....

That reminds me of what I went thru recently. I was following a friend and her family to "merisik" for his brother. When we entered the girl's house, I noticed that her brother's picture was hanging on the wall, amongst the other family pictures. So I nudged my friend and pointed to the picture, and she too was so excited and asked the family, how come her brother's picture was in their house? It turns out, that was the picture of the girl's elder brother!

Have you met one that looks like you?

Promoting Malaysian Bloggers Directory.

2007-09-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

I am focusing on promoting Malaysian Bloggers Directory from now until end of September 2007, where this post will be on top of my latest post. After September we will see what happened.

Personally, I love the idea of this directory. The possibilities is endless, however whether ideas can be implemented or not is another issue. And the possibility of it being abuse is there. If all of us are responsible and sincere, we may be able to help to make this program, champion by an individual (enaizi), a success for the Malaysian Bloggers Community. Maybe a "single" huge voice of all the little little Malaysian Bloggers out here can be realised.

Below are some messages from enaizi the webmaster of MalaysianNetwork @ Malaysian Bloggers Directory . I am posting it here to so that we can understand enaizi explaination and vision. Do promote it on your blog too..... remember the possibility of a huge single voice is endless. Again my caution is not to abuse it.

Message 1.
Hi All
I'm the webmaster for the MalaysianNetwork.
This is a personal project that I've been working on in my free time for the last five years.
It started as a platform for me to try out new technology, especially RIA-based (Rich Internet Applications).

So DG, dont worry, its not {the government monitoring us.... "big brother"....}
but I guest it will make it easier for Muhammad son of Muhammad to find RPK's blogs for his next police report. :)

I developed a web crawler that starts from one blog and complile links from the blogs and continue to add more blogs.
So that's why inevetibly some non-malaysian blogs end up in the list.

Every day, just before I go for lunch, I'll start the crawler to update the lastest postings. By one hour, it will already indexed all the 2000+ active blogs.

No registration is required to include your blog. The registration is for members to access the online applications such as myOffice, myGroup etc, which will be available later. (Still under Beta testing)

For new blog, once added, it will be marked as "to be reviewed". Normally I will review them the same night.

Thank you.

One point is awarded for each visitors referred. More points equals higher ranking in the list.

11:52 AM

Message 2
The first 500 Invitations are to those that have their email address listed in their blog profile.

11:58 AM

Message 3
The registration is not open yet. I disabled the register button but did not expect people to press [Enter]. You will be the first one to know once we are ready to accept new members.

Currently the online solutions are
available to selected groups. myOffice & myAccount for my two companies (50 staff), and the myGroup for my alumni association(4800 members). Trying to release it to the public by year end.

Thank you for your support

Have a wonderful life everybody!

When was the last time?

2007-09-27T08:33:00.000+08:00

As I sat on the prayer mat this morning, after solat subuh, I pondered. Yeah time flies....

I am not getting any younger. Life has been great to me. Of course there are minor hiccups, but overall, alhamdulillah.

I am grateful to live to this age. Grateful for all that Allah has bestowed upon me. Grateful to be able to see, hear and feel His wondrous world. As a human being, I do want more......

So when was the last time I thought about death? Just to share a secret with you all, I thought about death everyday. Thus I do really appreciate life.

I am sure most of you has been at the door of death itself, or knows someone that already died or dying. Ever try sitting or laying beside a dying person imagining it is you? Do try....

I am a coward by nature. So am I afraid of death? Of course I am. Who doesn't? There might be some out there who is not afraid of death, but they have good reasons, and yet when death stares you in the face, that is the time when you know your true self.

But not to worry. From my own experience, as we grow older like I am, time will train us to embrace death. Somehow, we will come to term with death. It is something that all of us must go thru.

As for me, I pray Allah spare me a long agony death when my time comes. Make it swift and quick. InsyAllah.

The reason I am writing all these? Just to remind myself, death does not wait for anyone. Maybe, I can learn together with you all on your perspective about death?

Adikung.

2007-09-26T09:28:00.000+08:00

Today I learn a new Bahasa Malaysia word. "Adikung. Seorang pegawai pembantu bagi seorang pegawai tinggi".

Who am I?

2007-09-24T13:09:00.000+08:00

Just like the title of a movie not long ago. A Jackie Chan movie if I am not mistaken. Somehow he lost his memory.

Well I did not loose my memory. But there are at times I do not really know who I am? And sometimes, I thought I am that kind of person, but the society sees me differently.

Let me try to remember the words my friends use to describe me:

ENIGMA (I had to open a dictionary to understand the word). I think, he described me that way because I was unpredictable.

A FRIEND. That is how most of my friends described me. Not A GOOD FRIEND, but just A FRIEND.

Other than that I have not heard them describing me anything else. This must be because they do not want to embarrass me or due to my reputation. In my younger days, my reputation supersedes me. One crazy daring young arse!

But to tell you all the truth. I see myself as a loner. Does not need any friends to survive. Done lots of crazy things on my own. Travel all over the world on my own... not all over the world la.... Maybe half of the world....

Not to say I do not have friends. During my teenager years, whenever we need to rumble, there will be at least 20 of my friends ever ready to go to battle. And yet, I felt myself to be alone. Then the only real friend I had was one person that does not speak much, thus I do not feel he is around me.

I grew up a coward. Yes, I should know myself right. So how did I become one with such reputation of daring, brave leader..... ermm... it is only an act... or as I say it a mask we wear in front of others. I do not consider myself brave, but rather stupid. I remembered an incident, 2 against 20 and we went for it! That was not brave, that was suicidally stupid!

For years I only see the negative things about myself. Till I reckon one day, if I do not take care of myself, no one else will. I am a loner most of my life. Well at least I am a happy loner.

I use not to understand when a person could not go to lunch on his own. To me its normal. I can have lunch sitting alone at the table, and it does not bothers me. So many times my friends asked me how I can do that? To me it is a small matter, I am hungry, I eat. Alone or with lots of people, I do not really care.

Another thing that I do not understand when my friends told me, how do I make friends so easily? I never told them, but it is something that I do without even thinking. I can talk with anybody. Simple, if you do not know what to talk about, you listen. I realised not many of us want to listen.....

So now I am building up my good qualities. Yet, who knows what mask we wear everyday? Cheers to all of you, and have a great life!

Got Hantu Meh?

2007-09-21T08:49:00.000+08:00

Friday nights after Terawih I think is a good time for some lepaking. So I stopped at one warung. I was not in the mood to talk or chat up anybody, so I just lepak. Life has been tense lately, so lepaking seems not a bad idea (even though that I am still not done with a few papers).

I ordered teh O tarik limau. While waiting for my drink (I was alone) when I overheard a group of 4 people, beside my table, talking a little bit out loud and laughing. So I pasang telinga la.

Apparently there were talking about eerie things.... This group of people, from what I can make out were from Perak and Selangor which is near the Perak border. So it seems .....

a) People there practice Santau. Just to test their power, they will try it out on unsuspecting strangers that passed by their village or towns. I learned some pointers that night. To check if Santau is performed or not, touch the bottom of the mug or cup. If the drink is supposedly hot, but the bottom is cold, or the opposite, the drink is cold, but the bottom is hot, better NOT drink! Best to say your prayers to our prophet SAW before drinking, and if there is element of Santau, the glass will break!

Symptoms of Santau is that the person will vomit blood immediately after consuming drinks or food laced with Santau.

b) It seems Hantu Raya also prevalent there. One of them was telling how late one night on a motorcycle, a person that died that day, was actually in the middle of the road blocking his way. The person looked the same as the decease accept he smelled chicken shit! The other person then told the story how a man that already died, scratched the walls of his house, and they actually gave the Hantu Raya some food to eat! The next person, guess not to be outdone, told the story of how, they were walking under some trees, late at night when suddenly it "rained" heavily. As they looked up, they saw a guy peeing! It resembles a guy that just died in the village.

My drink arrives at my table. It was hot. And I rub the bottom of the glass, ermm it is warm.... hehehe.... and the stories continue....

c) It is also norm, for the older generation to have "harimau jadian" as a pet. The problem is always when the owners passed away. The pet disturbed the villagers, and some shaman will then convinced the next of kin to take the pet, and it has been that way for generation. Some powerful shaman can discard these pets, I heard.

d) The guy from Selangor then told the story of a great shaman in his village. This person is so great that even mentioning his name, pelsit will run helter skelter! So a couple of years after the great shaman passed away, one woman was taken over by the pelsit. So many shaman tried but to no avail. The husband was about to give up, when out off no where he says, I will bring (the great shaman name). And the wife fainted. The pelsit gone.....

Yeah the stories does capture my attention. But seems far fetched....

e) The guy was telling a story about this bintang 3 person. How he was chased by the British army from Kedah and hid in Selangor, somewhere in 50s and 60s. With his own eyes and ears, late one night he saw that guy prayed on a hill at the fringe of the village. After praying, he stood up, and start talking out loud. It seems he was talking to his relative in Siam! Not only his voice can be heard clearly, but the other person voice from Siam can also be heard. Wow, there were already wireless 50 years ago!!!!

By then I am done with my drink. My eyes was getting tired and sleepy. The group were still talking on the topics, but I have to call it a night. Paid my drink and walked to my car. All the way to my house, I kept remembering "Jangan pandang belakang".

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2007-09-20T09:07:00.000+08:00

Went back from my last meeting (and unofficial interview, I am looking for a job) at about 4 30 am. Cooked some oat meals for my "sahur". Managed to sleep for nearly an hour..... then fell asleep in the toilet for a few more minutes....

I guess that is why I am kind of sad this morning due to lack of sleep? I am a man, that I know (Yeah confirm, after actually looking down there!). But how come I do feel hurt at times? Men are supposedly to be bad... mean ...

Men, we bring miseries to women. We make life hell for women. Ask any women, I am sure most of them have met an MCP at one time or another. Well (looking down there again, this time groping it...) confirmed I am a man.

Sorry if my post today is incoherent and pretentious... it is meant to be that way, to confuse and frustrate all the women in the world.

But I am still a man. And this one special lady, how can she hurts me?? With all the qualities of men in me, how did she manage to hurt me..... at this time and moment of my weakness? When so many times I informed her of my fragile situation....

Years of happiness, castles built in the air, yet she does hurt me. And she dont have to say a word to run havocs in my heart and mind. Do I have a mind today. Nah! Just my rambling due to lack of sleep. Let me sleep over it.....

Hey! I am a man!!! Or I am a male..? So what, after all we are only human.... we do have feelings and thoughts.

U Mobile.

2007-09-18T13:31:00.000+08:00

Ah! I went to the MiTV launching of their 018 number! For a first timer attending some sort of launching by the Telco, I was quite impressed.

As I entered the venue, Manhattan Ballroom, Berjaya Hotel and Convention Center, there were already lots of people. Cant seem to recognise any of them. Guess it was not my crowd. Later I saw some of my former colleagues from IT industry.

There were clowns. Yeah actual clowns doing magic tricks and juggling, entertaining the crowd. But what caught my eyes were the "statues". Actual human acting like mannequin. I have to respect them to be able to stand still with their postures for so long. It must have hurt their muscles.

An interesting point, well the ladies were not so revealing.... but the men "statues" u can actually see the shape and size of their penis.... hehehehe.....

Later I saw that those "statues" were painted or wrote on by some individuals, with symbols of love, and encouragement....

Then the guest of honor turns up. He was only 40 minutes late... I have seen him giving his speech before. He does not mince his words, but somehow, I felt he is from a different era, but very comfortable in the future technology as he clowned and bashed the Telcos. Of course he got everyone's attention when he started his speech on "foreplay"....

What really impress me, was the 3D presentation. I felt (am) like a kampung boy! To see 3D we have to wear the 3D glasses. Nowadays, we dont have to. Looks like I am the one that is out of date!

I hope MiTV will deliver their offerings as promised, the convergence of mobile phone, internet and broadcasting. Well actually it is for all the Telco to deliver! And watch out for broadband packages and contents offerings!

Vanity Plates.

2007-09-16T05:52:00.000+08:00

Yesterday first week of fasting, so I decided to go back to my village for breaking of fast. It is kind of sad and I felt so lonely everytime going back to my village. My parents no longer there....

But I would still go back whenever I could, especially the first week of Ramadhan. I can hear the walls echoing their talks and laughter while they were still around.... even if it is actually very quite. Maybe I blog about it some other time.

Back to the topic of the day. I was driving back when I saw this car. Its number plate TAH 1549. After a few seconds I was smiling to myself, I wonder who owns the number TAH 1?

Last week I saw on a BMW, MAK 1 somewhere in Taman Tun. Must be one brash tough guy. He must be proud of his achievement!

So long ago, parked in front of Medan MARA there was a Jaguar with a plate number MAT 1, if I am not mistaken.

And there was this Volvo with this number BCK 1100. Nothing fancy about the number. But the owner purposely put a very visible screw head in between the 11. So it looks like B C KHOO.

I have never seen it, but someone told me the story about the number plate BAB 1. The owner is actually smart and witty. He/she put it such that the BAB is on top and the 1 below. So it reads BAB Satu.

There you go folks, it is up to individuals who wants to be creative. Lets share your stories on these vanity number plates.....

Me... I was gunning for CBR 900. I guess some other lucky dude got the number on his CBR. Yeah I am biting my nails!!!!

Tagged again. Doing it for you Guile.

2007-09-13T13:38:00.000+08:00

5 Things In My Bag

1. My traveling kit (shaver, toothbrush, etc)
2. Kain Pelikat.
3. Sejadah lipat.
4. Plastic bag for dirty clothes.
5. Multipurpose 10 inches axe.
5.5. Use to be condoms... nowadays no more....

5 Things That Are In My Wallet

1. Money (RM50 notes)
2. IC
3. Driving licence
4. Insurance Card
5. Credit Cards

5 Things That Are In My 2nd Wallet (I always carry two wallets for backups)

1. Money (small change)
2. Bank Cards.
3. Name cards.
4. Calendar.
5. Use to carry condoms... now no more.... (see how I emphasize this)

5 Favorite Things In My Bedroom

1. Women.
2. TV and sound system.
3. Huge bed.
4. Aroma candles and oils.
5. Use to have condoms.... now no more...(it is getting pathetic!)

5 Things I Wish To Do

1. Make love anywhere I like.
2. Find and make more friends.
3. Live in Kundasang.
4. Starts a new business.(Again).
5. Never want to see a condom ever again!

5 Things That I Am Doing Now

1. Listening to my all time favorite MP3 malay songs.
2. Wishing I am somewhere else. Like Bali.
3. Trying to push away the hunger pang.
4. Reminding myself to go for Dzohor.
5. Thinking on how to avoid the condoms....

5 People I Would Like To Tag

1. Men
2. Women
3. Boy
4. Girl
5. Others. (Condoms etc...)

Dear Guile, I have answered the best I could. At least those were what that was in my tiny brain......

May Your Fasting Makes You A Better Person.

2007-09-13T05:47:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum to all my brothers and sisters in Islam. My prayers to all that is fasting today, and all that will fast this fasting month of Ramadhan. May Allah bless you all with all your prayers and make your wishes comes true. InsyAllah.

Wish I am an Ustaz, then I can give you all a better understanding why we are fasting. Other than of course it is requested by our religion.

What I understand is that, fasting is to make us a better person. Some of the things I can think of :

a) Appreciating those underprivileged people of their plights.
b) For us to control our wants and fancies. Not only our speech, sights and hearing.
c) For our health. Unfortunately some of us took the opportunity to have a feast every breaking of the fast.
d) For our monetary gain so that we can give more to those that needs it more than us.

I am sure there are more. Feels free to educate me and the rest. After all we are to learn everyday.

Last, my prayers to all that has not yet fast, I pray that you will start to fast. It is not for anyone else but yourself. I also pray that all mankind will live in peace. Amin.

Wassalam.

Crystal Ball.

2007-09-10T08:38:00.000+08:00

Ever wonder what is going to happen in your future? Or you would like to know what will happen to you, maybe this year? In your career or love life.....

Sorry I do not have a crystal ball, but I felt like my future life flashed by on Friday. More of my career path. We had our usual board meeting. I am not supposedly be in the board meeting as I am not the board!!!! Hehehe....

For reason only my MD really knows I do sit in the usual board meeting. Actually become his "macai", running around for him, preparing for the agenda coming up or even answering questions by the board. Actually sat in the board meeting and answer questions that the MD cannot answer!

So last Friday, I guess my sins caught up with me.

The Chairperson of our company, actually questioned my MD if he has done any wrong doing in the company.......

Out of frustration a few months back, I told the chairman during one of my update session with him, about little little things that is questionable in the office. It seems he took it seriously and questioned my MD. He gave my MD 2 weeks to answer.

Guess who has to help the MD answer those allegations? No one other than me....

Remember I was the one who actually updated the Chairperson on the wrongdoings of the MD? Now I have to help the MD answer those allegations! WTF!!

Hehehe... that is not so bad. If I read the Chairperson meanings in between the line, he wants the MD to get him involve on the sharing of the "cake"!!! I am done for!!!

Been months I am so tension looking for a new job. Now looks like I have to hasten my plan.... or worst, the bosses will boot me out soon. Wish me luck people, cause this time I really need it......

The Dance

2007-09-03T15:18:00.000+08:00

Please watch the short video till the end for some excitement and mystic.

The video is about 6 minutes and 30 seconds.

Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka!

2007-08-31T08:18:00.000+08:00

"SAKA."

2007-08-28T12:24:00.000+08:00

Sorry I do not know the English word.

I have to apologize to all that might be offended by my post this time. It is meant to share some experience and notes.

The story goes such that a few of my aunties have this capability to transcend into another being. From my own experience, the body is still theirs, but character, behavior and voice differs.

The severeness of each case might differ. In some case they just become someone else. To the most extreme cases they can actually move small objects and even starts a fire!

In the Malay world it is called "SAKA". It seems it is brought down from generation to generation. This being is supposedly to protect the family. But I have seen it does worst things. In some cases that I am sure most of you have heard, the person controlled by this being, will run naked around the village......

It set me thinking, is it just confined to the Malays society? Apparently, it does happen to other societies as well. They named it differently, but the similarity is there. Something like vampires similar to "pontianak".

So what does the medicine world have to say about it? You may read more on multiple personality disorder . Or schizophrenia . Like all mysteries and mystical things, not all could have been explained by science and medicine.

My conclusion is that, while there are genuine cases of "SAKA", but most of the incident involving individuals can be treated by modern medicine. When all these fail, then we should look at alternative.

Anybody can share their stories or experience?

Insanity.

2007-08-23T11:29:00.000+08:00

What pushes a person till their mind goes bonkers?

Pressure. Lover, family, peer, society and so many other possible human interaction can create pressure. Even religion. Other things that is not human related like environment. Would you believe me if I say, whatever the source of pressure, it is us ultimately that will decide to "label" it as pressure?

Heredity. Just my opinion. Possible. However most is not heredity. But of environment and family experience. The child see an adult goes bonkers or berserk. When the child grows he/she emulates the scenario when put under pressure. And it goes down from generation to generation.

Trauma. Physical or mental trauma. Accidents that involve force to the brain. Witnessing an incident that is out of the norm. Catching your lover in bed with another person for example.

Illness. High fever, virus related and disillusion.

The above are some that may cause a person to become insane. Are there ways to avoid or minimize us becoming insane? I leave it to you all to ponder the solutions now that we are aware some of the causes.

You know what I realized? No matter who you are, you will have a little streak of insanity in you! Tak caya...? Takpe.....

Malaysian Bloggers Directory

2007-08-20T17:23:00.000+08:00

If you ask me, I really do not know what is this all about. However, I think it is interesting, that someone or somebody is doing a directory for Malaysian Bloggers.

If you are interested you may visit this link Malaysian Bloggers Directory .

Hope to see you all registering and we will see from there where this will lead to. It is easy to register. Anybody have any idea what this is about maybe can enlighten me.

Cheers.

Of MC.

2007-08-17T14:41:00.000+08:00

Nope I have not been recuperating. Actually I have been busy with work. By end of last week I was already 90% fit. Got the topic today while I was recuperating..... hehehe... I was on Medical Leave (MC).

This is what I learn about leaves.... there is Annual leave, Medical Leave and Emergency leave. What set me thinking was that while I was on MC, I found out that in labor law, one is entitled to so many MC in a year.

So I sat pondering, what happened if I was on MC for more than that..... it seems your employee can pay you half your salary..... then after a certain period, if you are still on MC, no pay at all. And after a certain period you are terminated. At least that was what I understood of the labor law here.

To those genuine MC cases (I use the word genuine) I feel sorry for them. Not only they are ill (that is the reason they have very long MC), they can be terminated in due course. Life can be cruel.

Then there is the other side of the story. I find it very interesting. I was having conversation with a few different people that has this interesting idea. It seems some people that knows that in a year there is a number of days that one can take MC, therefore to them one must make full use of it, even if they are not sick! I feel it is cheating the company.... but to these group of people it is their right. What do you think?

Seat belts.

2007-08-13T14:23:00.001+08:00

Update : My colleague, which was the driver in the accident is slowly recovering. Most probably he will recuperate within 3 months. Just to inform you all here, his ear was nearly severed by the seat belt. Even the driver's airbag did not manage to stop his jaw being smashed into the steering wheels.

I have been pondering on seat belts. Thanks to HL. Well... I will think about the airbag later.

Yes I agree, that seat belts do save life. However, users should be educated on the right way of usage. Or is there such thing of using seat belts the right way?

First of all, how can I confirm this? In some cars, the airbag will be activated only if seat belts are worn? Therefore, if you are not using your seat belts, and you are involve in an accident, the air bag will not function. Please read your car manual. It seems that one of my colleague's sister was killed in an accident and the airbag was not activated. The family tried suing the car manufacturer, however was told that the airbag will only be activated if seat belts are worn. Their case was thrown out.

Now on seat belts matters. I have been pondering....

a) Kids have difficulty using the standard seat belts. We are not talking about babies or toddlers here.
b) How about pregnant ladies?
c) Why are seat belts like condoms... one size fits all? Hehehe... cant help using that phrase to keep you people excited!

I realised on the higher end automobile the seat belts can be adjusted to the body frame of the driver or passenger. Now, do not talk about those expensive airbags. I think all car manufacturer should have a better design seat belts that have more safety features and standards. That is why I said in my previous posting, seat belts are not safety belts......

Let us not talk about kids or pregnant ladies, even ordinary drivers in a normal car, the seat belts can be more harmful in an accident not exceeding the driving limit. If you notice, the seat belts in your car is fastened to the wall of your car in a standard position and height. So some of you will realise that the seat belts is actually just behind your right ear for the driver. Just imagine you in a collision not exceeding the speed limit. What do you think will happen? Chances are for those that is shorter, you will end up with half if not all of your ear cut off!

Just my two cents worth.... car manufacturers should produce better safety seat belts for the drivers and passengers. If they can be proactive, they should also produce specially designed seat belts for kids and pregnant ladies.....

Seat belts are not safety belts.

2007-08-06T12:32:00.000+08:00

Disclaimer : Names, places and story line has been changed or omitted to protect the owners.

It was early in the morning. I usually drove myself. I hate to be the passenger. But on that faithful early morning, I was the passenger.

We just finished our meeting and discussion. On my way back home, I decided to hitch a ride with one of my colleague. This is something I seldom do....

We do not talked that much, as we have done so much talking and discussing in the office. We were listening to the slow rock music from the radio. I could not remember the channel. Hot FM was it?

Then I remembered we approached a four junction traffic light. The light was green. My colleague slowed down as we entered the junction. That was all I remembered.

The next thing I remembered I was in the emergency hall of a hospital. My colleague's head was bandaged and bloody. He was conscious, I recalled. Me, I was still in one piece, with slight injuries to my leg. My ugly face still intact.

For the first few hours, my mind was blank. I felt helpless, I cant recall what happened that early morning. I was so frustrated, I cant even remember what year it was. All was just one blank and void feeling.

It seems I lost my short term memory. When my other colleague and family arrived I can recognised them. However, I cant recall what happened.

Gradually after staying nearly two days in the hospital, I can recall what happened up to the traffic light, after that one void and blank feeling, then it resume in the emergency room of the hospital.

Until today I cant recall what happened during that void and blank moment. I was told, we were in an automobile accident. Apparently, the other vehicle hit us from the driver's side. Most probably the driver was drunk or damn sleepy! It took him 2 days to do his police report......

As for my colleague, thank Allah it was not worse. He got more than 20 stitches to his head. A smashed jaw, which need a 4 hour operation. And a fractured leg. He too cant remember of the actual accident.

If I understand correctly, the doctor told us, it is common for accident victims to loose their short term memories when they are not aware of the impending accident. Accident victim who saw or notice the impending accident, will be able to remember the incident. Due to the unforeseen trauma, accident victim like me, might never recall the actual accident at all.

So now I am still recuperating. From this incident I learn, that air bags do keep you from heavily injured in a normal accident. But seat belts (not safety belts!) makes your body sore and full of bruises. My stomach, back and shoulders are still full of bruises, very sore and soft......

My advice to all that is in any vehicle on the road, to be aware at all time. You can never know, when it is your time to be involve in an accident. Take care you all.

Hehehe.... for me, taking a flower bath is just a figure of speech.

What? Fell and the ladder hit you somemore?

2007-08-03T17:01:00.000+08:00

That's what they say. Will update next week when I recover. Had an accident two days ago, got out today.

Hehehe dont worry I am still standing! Only some stitches and bruises. (Who would thought that the seat belts can be very nasty in an accident?).

This weekend got to take flower bath! Chase away all the suwey!

Have a great weekend people.

The sky is falling down.

2007-07-31T08:40:00.001+08:00

Hey! Is it raining daily???

How come I feel that the sky is falling down??? Yeah the sky is falling down on me....

P/S: I am still standing.... when I am really down, I will send an S.O.S. When life gets tough... the tough gets going... hehehe... the catch is I am not tough!

When the shit hits the fan.

2007-07-27T08:46:00.000+08:00

It has been an eventful week.... hehehe... yeah, I am still alive and standing. Go suck yourself out there who expect me to crumble, fall and die. I will die standing and fighting! Life is so full of surprises....

When it rains they say it really pours! Thus I have been extra busy....

Let me answer or comment on some of your comments....

1) I am a dead ghost. A dead man becomes a ghost. A dead ghost becomes a man....
2) I am still alive. Thank you. Still standing... barely.
3) The person that threatens to kill me in my sleep has apologise, however, I still have my good friend on standby to take the necessary action.... just in case la...

Guess my trip to Labuan was teaching me to be cool and relax. I sure need to be in that mode now. Too much event is effecting my normal routine....

On work front, all hell broke loose. This is the test, of what I am made of. Being pressured and attacked from all angles. Inside and outside. It is easier to handle the outside attack... but from inside.... it hurts... it hurts bad. August will be great month.... am I in or out!

On love issues.... guess it is normal for human to err. My love your expectation of me has been too high. No matter how much I have tried and sacrificed, it will never be enough. Thus I surrender myself to fate. Or shall we try it together? It is really tough when you think you are the only one trying so hard... and I am not. But really, am I not??

On my social life, it has been neglected too long. Bad rumors and stories circulating about me. Serve me right.... hehehe... I should have known others do not like it when someone else seems in a better position..... I love being a ghost.... human they have bad hearts.... cruel hearts... full of double standard. But again, arent we all??? Yeah including me.....

So I am still standing. A huge mop in my right hand with a pail of super detergent in my left hand. Cleaning up the shits in my life. It sure does make a bloody dirty mess, when all the shit hits the fan.... when it rain down... it sure pours......

Torn between two events and the night stalker.

2007-07-23T14:59:00.000+08:00

Yesterday sucks! Yeah I know it was Sunday, but it sucks big time.

I was caught to be at two places at the same time. I schemed and thought of ways to split myself into two. My thinking and scheming failed miserably.

I felt like a jerk the whole day. Nothing seems right. I must have hurt a number of people. How can I tell them, there is only one of me? I know they know, but they just would not want to acknowledge!

And late at night, someone actually informed me, that that someone has been scheming to kill me in my sleep. Literally kill me. Man that keeps me awake the whole night till morning.....

Today is Monday. I am picking up yesterday's pieces. Where will I sleep tonight? I have to move on, keep on wandering..... I hate to be killed in my sleep ok?

And if I do get killed in my sleep... and you guys read it in the paper... it is true ok.... and the villain is... ermmm I already reported to my trusted friend..... just in case....

Hehehe... you guys thought I am kidding. I have known that that person wants to kill me since a few years ago, but that person never utter any threat until last night.

Sunday sucks.... and Monday... I got to move and run.....

Cool ba.... relax ba....

2007-07-18T07:51:00.000+08:00

From Labuan we adjourn to Kota Kinabalu for our next meeting. As there was time to kill, we went to Filipino market. It was still the same..... and the price is higher. So we decided to find our friend. A Director in one of The Prime Minister Department in KK.

First thing he told us (he is a Sabahan) as we entered his new office, of which the furniture is not complete after more than 2 months of that department moving into their new premise. And still waiting for their departmental car. He told us, "here in KK, we have to be, cool ba and relax ba". Nothing seems to be an urgency.

So taking note on what he said, I began to look around. I was expecting the order in the stall we had for dinner will be late, but it turns out faster than normal if we compared to KL. However, food is a little bit expensive in KK, or maybe Sabah itself?

Getting back to my experience in Labuan, remember I promised to tell about the "sayap" story? Well actually nothing much, but it set me wondering and thinking, how easily a misunderstanding in communication can happen.

I was ordering dinner in Labuan. It is not for the first time, as we had dinner at the same place the previous night. This time I asked for "kepak ayam". If you go to Labuan, you will notice that most stalls and restaurants will have barbecued chicken wings on its menu.

I asked, "Kepak ayam ada?"
Waitress with blur face, "Ayam?"
I answered "Ya kepak ayam"
Waitress, "Tak tau ba?"
Me, "Saya mahu kepak ayam sebaris"
Waitress, "tidak ada ba.."
Then I pointed to the barbecued chicken wings on the grill.
Waitress laughed, "Itu sayap ayam ba!"
Me, "oh, ok saya mahu sayap ayam sebaris..."

Such a simple thing and miscommunication can happened.... I realised, most of us knows "Kepak" and "sayap" is the same... but again, I maybe wrong... maybe my bahasa is bad?

Getting back to "cool ba... relax ba". Went to the airport early at 5 am, to catch the flight at 6 am. That was for when I remembered my friend saying "cool ba... relax ba". Eventhough, I was trying my luck to be in the waiting list.... the flight was canceled! It was a MAS flight. Apparently, the plane did not arrive.... I wonder?

So I sat there watching the chaos. And true enough, all of them were "cool ba... relax ba..." attitude prevailed. The next flight was scheduled to fly at 7 20 am. On the dot, there are still people checking in.... at 7 45 am... on the departure monitor, it was flashing "last call" for that flight.....

As we were on the waiting list, I got lots of time to kill. We were seated in front of the ladies rest room... I am not a pervert ok! It is just happen that the waiting list counter is near the ladies!

Then suddenly, I saw a man coming out of the ladies..... ermm this man must have not known to read, or something..... What amazed me was, soon after, not less than 7 men went into the ladies.... even when ladies were in! At one time, there was a policewomen using the toilet! To be honest, only one of those men were actually ticked off by one of the MAB staff.... but even after that more of his colleagues were using the same ladies.....

I wondered why? I do not have the answer.... but I saw them lining up checking into a Kudat flight. The men do not even bother, when we all gave a weird look at them. I guess they are use to sharing toilets with their women....

That should be my update for today. I am still on the waiting list to KL. I have to be "cool ba.... relax ba" mode.....

I am in Labuan!

2007-07-17T19:41:00.000+08:00

Do you know that all hotel in Labuan has been full for the last three months??? I did not know....

So, on the last minute notice to go down to Labuan, we had the flight ticket but no place to stay.

Luckily, managed to get a room in a two star hotel.

Will update further when I get back. Maybe will write about "sayap".

Update after 070707

2007-07-12T06:08:00.000+08:00

Life seems to be so hectic after 070707. I remembered trying to go to Uptown D'Kota on that evening.... (11 30 pm) and the place was so crowded that I decided to come again some other weekend! I was wondering why so many people... especially the "mat rempits" .... then it occured to me... is it because of 070707?? Must be a lucky day... but not for me....

Starting last Monday, life had been full of meetings for me. Until today, I am already in Putrajaya twice.... and by tomorrow, I should be in Putrajaya three times.... And all because the TPM complaint about the service of 3G is poor in Putrajaya. The irony was that it was the JPM itself was giving a hard time for the Telcos (Celcos) to put up their infrastructure there....

Yeah KD I am looking around if I can spot u in the parking lot, or at level CA of block 2 PJH..... hehehe... who knows I might get lucky and catch u and your friends.... I have seen Di, maybe I might be able to see Frank??? Hehehe.....

Lots of good news for the company I am working for.... as for me personally, still looking. However, I have thought about it.... I have to make things happen. So I did some maneuvering and if I am lucky.... I might get a new job.... ermmm but then I will not be able to go to Putrajaya often anymore..... hehehe....

Yes, job still sucks.... "I am still looking".....

LONDON EYE

2007-07-06T08:45:00.000+08:00

Any similarity with the one in Tasik Titiwangsa?

Tagged by Jie. Meme For Charity.

2007-07-02T09:18:00.000+08:00

"By doing this meme you are contributing rm127 to the Darul Izzah Orphanage".

The meme is about completing at least seventeen out of the following twenty seven sentences........ *These can be copied and pasted to your entry*

1. A person is only as good as ...his words are.
2. Friendship is always ...treasured.
3. To love is to...be willing to sacrifice.
4. Money makes me...greedy and evil! Wish I can have more money! So that I be super greedy and evil! Hahahaha....
5. I miss ...those days when I was a kid... so little issues of life!
6. My way of saying I care is by ...my action.
7. I try to spread love and happiness by...making time to meet and make as many friends as possible
8. Pick the flowers when...one have the time to smell it....
9. To love someone is to...respect their individuality.
10. Beauty is...in the eye of the beholder.
11. When I was thirteen, what I remember the most was...when I learn about sex.
12. When I was twenty one, I remember...of having sex most of the time.
13. I am most happy when ...I have enough sex.
14. Nothing makes me happier than ...a very simple life.
15. If I can change one thing, I will change...all human hearts only knows to love.
16. If smiles were..to bring happiness to the world .then I..will smile all the time.
17. Wouldn't it be nice if we could...be happy all the time.
18. If you want to ...be love...then you have to ...love more.
19. Money is not everything but...it makes the world turns around.
20. The most touching moments I have experienced is...when I saw a kid crying asking his dead mum to come back to life.
21. I smile when...you smile.
22. When I am happy, I...smile.
23. If only I don't have to ...lie, then...my life will be much better.
24. The best thing I did yesterday was...sms a simple thank you to my friends that met for our little gathering last Saturday.
25. If I ever write a book, I will give it this title,".How to make a woman happy."
26. One thing I must do before I die is...to live.
27. Doing this meme, I feel like ...I am actually a very sad person.

For more understanding about this tag and meme please go to idham

In The Eyes Of Dade Ghost Only.

2007-06-28T08:20:00.000+08:00

The above picture does not depict "my type". However, it is a subject to drool over!

My Type Of Woman (Answering Dame Rosse's question).

1) Intelligent.
2) Has her own mind.
3) Independent.
4) Naturally sexy.
5) Knows what she wants and gets it.
6) Understands me.
7) Love life.
8) Willing to share her life with me.
9) Socially acceptable.
10) Enjoys sex.

There it is. Maybe next time I can elaborate on each point. See if I have the time.

Note: I am not looking. I already found that lady. Wish me luck.

A Game In A Public Place.

2007-06-27T13:55:00.000+08:00

I have to apologize up front, as I may offend some people, especially the ladies.

I was on the public transport recently. I was bored. Then my mind says, lets play a game. But what game? Suddenly an idea hits me......

It is a simple game. I have to be honest with myself. After all, I am the only one playing and knowing that I am playing the game!

As the place is crowded with so many people. The objective of the game is to find a lady, by her looks, dressing and posture, that I think I would like to be my life partner!

So I started looking and evaluating the ladies. 1st one, failed. 2nd, failed. It went on and on. I think it was the 30th lady, saw one that I felt might make a good life partner.

What amaze and alarm me was that, I think I vetted thru at least 200 ladies, and only about 3 or 4 of the ladies falls into the category that might be my life partner! That is only about 2 percent.....

I started to evaluate myself. Am I so picky? Or my standard too high? Or the samples on that day was not my "taste"?

Whatever it was. That day I learned:

a) Even if I think that lady is suitable for me.... on her side, it might not be.
b) The first impression of attraction (which can be fatal) between me and all those strangers, the percentage is too small.
c) There are so many beautiful, sweet, sexy and well dressed ladies, however only a handful fall into the category "my type".

My conclusion is that if I were to look for a life partner, base on first impression and attraction, at a public area, the chances is nearly zero.

Anybody game to play this game?

Note: Yes I am aware, that I am not a suitable life partner candidate for most women.....

What have I been doing these past few weeks.....

2007-06-25T12:49:00.001+08:00

Other than I am busy with work.... (What is new?)

And I am not happy with work.

I took a long break....hehehe.. that was fun.

So, I, in the beginning was learning to do the slide show..... it went well. I did a few slides... and was about to retrieve my old pics... hehehe... luckily I did not. Or you will be seeing lots of old travel pics! Maybe next time, I will bore you all with the old pics.

Then I stumble on the "video clips" that Blogger was testing. Hehehe... I did a few clips. I find it very interesting. I am thinking of incorporating video clips on my sex 101 topics.... (kidding ok!) but then again... maybe....

Interestingly I was cleaning up my humble abode. I realized that I have been keeping lots of old letters (from banks, EPF, Income Tax etc). So I threw away most of it. And I found at least 4 full computer sets with printers.... but all were junks. I will be selling it to the "keling botol"..... or the "old newspaper" man.

I have been repairing broken water pipes and faucets. All these I have been neglecting, cause I am supposedly busy!

Lastly, I still feel like shit. I am looking for a new job! Or.... I propose to the management a major revamp in the company. Something like changing the owners! Which are the management.... hehehe.... looks like I go find a new job.....

P/S: I bought a wireless mouse yesterday. I spent 30 minutes trying to figure out while reading the instruction in English on how to insert the batteries..... Made in China products are cool, but the manual is another story..... Ermm I think I can do a great job in China... writing manuals for them!

Streets Of London

2007-06-23T22:48:00.001+08:00

Madame Tussauds London

2007-06-22T08:50:00.000+08:00

Blogger In Draft - Video Upload.

2007-06-20T18:48:00.000+08:00

I have done some testing and these are the few things I found out.

a) I still could not figure it out to get that icon to upload the video. Sometimes it is in my "create posting" menu, sometimes it is not.

b) So far if the video is below 2 MB, it can be uploaded. I tried 10 MB and it gave an error.

Will keep on testing.

Testing - A short movie - ANTEATER

2007-06-18T12:18:00.000+08:00

I just love high lands..... CH.... TM .....

2007-06-15T12:36:00.000+08:00

Courtesy Of Awana Kijal - More Pics.

2007-06-14T19:08:00.000+08:00

Testing Slide Show (A Wedding) - Learned From M.I.S.S.Y Blog

2007-06-13T13:49:00.000+08:00

This is NOT my hometown. (Just a stop over).

2007-06-13T12:14:00.000+08:00

Labuan Trip Postponed To July!

2007-06-12T09:19:00.000+08:00

On the eleventh hour, I got a call from the Kementerian's Office informing that the trip need to be rescheduled as the Chairperson has an emergency matter to attend. Apparently his sister passed away.

There goes my chocolate ration for June. Ermm... got to wait till July.....

The meeting with boss enemy turns out well. Better than expected. The Dato was quite pleasant. Achieved all my target for the meeting, that was to resolve most of the issues that the Dato has been complaining to our minister.

The only thing I was not happy about the Dato was that when he tried to show how powerful he is! He actually told me, " I have powerful people backing me, do you know my powerful friends?"

I answered, "Dato I know who are your friends and how powerful they are....." with my poker face.... I wish I could have told him, " Any of them more powerful than Allah?" I did not say that, because I reminded myself why I was there was to resolve issues.......

Hehehe... The Dato thought I will pee in my pants... but I held my grounds..... Yeah just because KJ is backing the Dato, does not means the Dato is above the law.....

Even though I achieve my goals and complete my mission, I am beginning to hate my job. I hate power mongers..... I hate the truth about my own country.....

A short visit to my home town.

2007-06-11T09:09:00.000+08:00

Hi,

For those that was wondering where I was.... I went to "Balik Kampung". Actually dropped by somewhere else on the way.... I will be posting some pictures this week or early next week ... see how la.

Tomorrow I am going to Labuan. Hope to get back by Wednesday. Last time I was there, it was such an adventure..... I was hopping from plane to plane... luckily did not have to ride the boats to reach there.

This time, I got a direct flight. The adventure will be that my boss decide not to go on the last minute..... It will be a different adventure by itself. We will be David fighting Goliath! Do not mind me for being over dramatic.... but how can I not when my boss must attend, but he chooses not to!

I had a lovely time at my home town. I remembered when I was young, how I wish a double decker bus will ply the route of my hometown. I always thought it will be a dream. What a wonderful feeling, when I saw a double decker bus going thru my little home town! Things are happening in this little sleepy town......

Got to go to my next meeting. The meeting that was postponed twice.... yes meeting with my boss enemy no 1! I am having butterflies in my stomach! I dare not even take breakfast, cause I might just puke!

Have a great Monday... and a much better week!

P/S: I will be buying lots of chocolates in Labuan......

Action taken on the note to myself.

2007-06-01T15:19:00.000+08:00

1) Preparation to move office 3rd quarter 2007.
Already saw a few potential sites. Boss wants to move to Phileo Damansara. The staff does not. So I am caught in between.
Action: Proposed office space in Bandar Permaisuri. Beside STAR LRT. Normal jam and available parking space. Wait for management response.

2) The boss making a move to dismiss the dispatch. It seems this has been ongoing (love hate relationship) between my boss and his dispatch for over 5 years.
Action: Proposed to boss to upgrade the dispatch boy into technical department. I am responsible and he will report directly to me. Boss already approve. Up to the boy now.

3) Taking over accounts from Main Office.
Hope to do so in July (That is if I can survive till then). It has been a tough battle, and this hopefully will win the war!
Action: Still fighting the battles.

4) Pow-wow with my boss enemies.
Why la so many people hates my boss?
Action: First pow-wow (Actually postponed once already). Boss enemy left for urgent meeting. Ermm.. what an excuse? Already set for next pow-wow. I really hate this type of pow-wow. I wish I have at least a pistol or hand grenade!

5) Labuan show down.
Next month we will present and know our fate in Labuan.
Action: Already prepared the proposals. Set the agenda with the chairman. Tentative show down on the 2nd week of June......

My mind is getting clearer. Tonight and tomorrow will be taking videos again. This time a wedding in Negri Sembilan. Yeah I am doing it for fun......

Have a wonderful weekend people....... Next week I am taking a long break over the weekend. Time to heal the battle wounds.

A note to myself.

2007-05-31T09:37:00.000+08:00

1) Preparation to move office 3rd quarter 2007.
Already saw a few potential sites. Boss wants to move to Phileo Damansara. The staff does not. So I am caught in between.

2) The boss making a move to dismiss the dispatch.
It seems this has been ongoing (love hate relationship) between my boss and his dispatch for over 5 years.

3) Taking over accounts from Main Office.
Hope to do so in July (That is if I can survive till then). It has been a tough battle, and this hopefully will win the war!

4) Pow-wow with my boss enemies.
Why la so many people hates my boss?

5) Labuan show down.
Next month we will present and know our fate in Labuan.

There are more, but why am I depress when writing all these???

I am the preacher.

2007-05-28T08:32:00.000+08:00

The irony of it all.

But foremost, I would like to thank all that has given encouragement and word of wisdom throughout my short stint in the blogging world. I sincerely and really appreciate each one of you for giving a boost every time my moral is down.

However, that is the wonder of God. Most of the time, I am the preacher, or some sort. Pushing my team every time they are down or facing issues (Just changing the word "problem" with "issues" help most of my team).

When faced with problems, they either froze or crumble. I am preaching to them lots of ideas, to better themselves when facing adversaries. Cause it is what we perceive motivates us to deal daily issues.....

So I am the beacon, to guide them in times of rough moments. Most of the time I am able to guide them for months if not for years. There are times that I let some of them down, yet if one persevere, all "issues" can be overcome.

So the irony of it all...... The preacher himself in the real world is at lost at times. Lately he is lost most of the time. He is very grateful for all the encouragement he got from all his friends here.

Thank you!

One of those days...... (More often sounds like it!)

2007-05-24T13:55:00.000+08:00

This down feeling is happening too often.

Feeling like I am loosing control over my life..... in the first place I never had control.... so just let go... let go.....

Ha ha ha ha.....

2007-05-22T12:45:00.000+08:00

Continuation on happenings last Friday. While I was making arrangement for my boss to go for the urgent and short noticed meeting in Pahang, he called to request me to go instead.

To cut the story short, we attended the meeting and the reason we were called was that they need a scapegoat! Hehehe.... yours truly for the first time (after many years) was caught off guard and could not comprehensively answered the allegations and questions....... In the first place, we were not supposedly be in the picture at all.......

What I think of the situation is that, maybe its time for us to be in the picture! Will request our ministry to back us up. Next time, if they blunder, they actually can blame some it on us!

Never mind, it is confusing me.... I am sure it is confusing most of you.... hahaha....

Spend the weekend taking video for a friend's wedding. I am not good at taking videos, and I do not edit them, but some of my friends will request me to take the videos anyhow..... Most probably because I do it for free!

Was transferring the video on Sunday to DVD format, cause I need to prepare for two more shoots for two consecutives weekends, when a friend accidentally off the power! I lost my mood then and decide to do it sometimes later. I wonder when?

I am in the midst of changing back to my own personal notebook, as I am returning the office notebook, because one of my manager cannot do his work without a notebook..... So that explain why I did not logon yesterday (Monday) and maybe tomorrow. What to do, the management approved the budget to purchase a new notebook, but the boss then thru his PA, informed me that the management will not be purchasing the notebook even though they already approved the budget.

Forgive me for writing senselessly. Maybe my confused state of mind......

To plan.

2007-05-18T08:26:00.000+08:00

I really do not understand when one does not plan ahead. I mean, the least layout a simple plan that one can understand and implement.

Case 1.
Calling for a meeting. Twice this week, we have been called by the "authority" for a meeting. One yesterday morning at 9 am. We were only called at about 8:45 am, while most of us are already in another meeting! Of course no way we could have attended....

And today, we were called for a meeting at 3 pm, somewhere in Pahang! I am still preparing for someone to go with the boss.

I do not understand, do they wake up in the morning, then only decide to call for a meeting? Does not even apologise for the last minute request, just because they are the authority?

Case 2.
"When the shit hits the fan". Damn gross! I was let down by my own managers. Some of them has this attitude, knowing that I will be responsible and will clean up their mess, they have this ability to hide certain issues, until yes......

I understand, even the best of plan can fail. But what pissed me off is that, when people plan to fail. Lack of responsibilities. Yet most of these people are high up in the organisation. I wonder how they get to be there.......

Sometimes I think, they have mastered the art of "eating shit that hits the fan", and goes about their life as if they are not aware or involve at all.......

Those years.....

2007-05-16T08:26:00.000+08:00

Life was much simpler when we were a kid. I use to day dream a lot. My auntie had lots of these imported magazine. I dunno why, it was hidden under my grandma's bed, but I would flip thru the pages, and kissed the beautiful models on the lips........

I was 6 years old then! When I grew up, and remembered what I did, I told myself, I was already sick in the mind, since I was that young. There was no erection then, I was too young, but I do not know what makes me kissed those glossy papers! We do not even have television then!

Then I remembered somemore, at the age of 8, I started day dreaming about women (mind you not girls, but grown adult women). The word "marry" was constantly on my mind. I do not really understand what marriage was all about. I do not even know about sex! But the innate feelings that stirs in my groin was physically felt.

At the age of 10, I was already an expert making male and female figurines using plastercine. Surprisingly I was making them make love to each other. I do not recall anyone telling me or teaching me how it was done.

It was also during those years, I somewhat despise the opposite sex. I was more day dreaming inventing and producing flawless female robots. Obeying my commands and wishes. Yes, having erotic capabilites and indulgence.

When I was 12, after trying to "tackle" a classmate fail with a huge disastrous result, I somehow hates women. So my daydreaming focused more on making females robots........

Then at the age of 13, I was introduced, more like I was experimenting on masturbation. The pleasure of achieving orgasm was so wonderful. Without realising it, I must have masturbate a lot, that I forgot about the dreams of making female robots.

If I am not mistaken, only at the age of 16, I finally kissed a girl. I was madly in love. Learn the pleasure of kissing. We had "chemistry". Learn French kissing even without knowing what it was all about.

I only learn and practically making love, in the real sense, at the age of 21.

P/S: There was a darker side of me, which I purposely left out in this post. Frolicking naked in bed with older ladies, I started much younger. And those years of experimenting with sex also begin much earlier. The truth might not be acceptable by the general reader.

If I can save time in a bottle.

2007-05-15T10:15:00.000+08:00

Been working harder and longer hours to make more money. It is true money is not everything, however, it is a valuable tool as a "key" to open up "doors" and make life a little bit easier.

The funny thing about me is that, I work hard for the money, because I want to buy time. I have this notion, if I can have more money, I can actually buy time. Guess I am still trying to prove it. I work more and longer hours. Still the money is not there..... and my time is getting shorter!

Now I realise, time is more valuable than money itself. Now I am caught in a dilemma, looks like I cannot have both?

So I am back to the drawing board. Figuring how make to more money and have more free time.

Let me ponder more on my uncertainty of my next step......

The Story.

2007-05-11T05:58:00.000+08:00

I got this friend. Knows him since I was a kid. We went to the same hostel. He had a bad reputation. Kind of rough and tough. With his toungue too (hehehe... ). Yeah he was kind of mean.....

He mellowed down as he grew older. I guess he has done most things earlier than most of us. Some of us would even asked advised from him, as he seems to know a little bit more than us.....

So one day he settled down. We would say that they were not a bad couple. Both are above average heights and looks. Some of his friends even say he married a model. Not true la, but the lady looks better la.....

What we gather, cause we really do not know what happened as we dont live with him! Hehehe... Was that he was the so called "suami mithali". Yes he did all the chores that I wrote in my previous post. And much much more. He was really trying to prove to himself that he could be a great husband, I guess....

Imagine, when they got the first baby, the wife did not even wake up a single time to feed or clean up the baby......

That was the first year of marriage. Then things got bad for him for the second year...... We (his so called close friends) had to rescue him from his house, for an all outing with boys now and then......

He was not allowed to speak to any women. Not even his cousin or even his own sister-in-law.... One time the wife was so furious, cause she caught him, having a conversation with the shampoo lady while holding his baby in a supermarket! The lady was apparently trying to sell shampoo la!

To cut the story short, what you think happened?

The last straw was when the wife did not allow him to go out with his buddies! Yes us! So what you think happened?

Yes he walked out off the marriage after two years..........

And guess what? The story from the other side says, he left because he chooses his friends over his own family..... that we know.... not very true.....

What do we learn from here? Marriage goes down the drain not only due to infidelity.... it comes in a lot of forms. So my friends out there, evaluate yourself from time to time..... Never stop learning and open up your eyes. We are only human...... that was what the mother-out-law said the day he walked out! (The story goes that out-laws too can break a relationship!)

Have a great weekend everybody!

I am just wondering......

2007-05-10T08:58:00.000+08:00

If a man does all these, is he a wimp or a good candidate to be a good husband? These chores is for others, not himself.

1) Wash dishes.
2) Wash clothes.
3) Hang clothes.
4) Cook.
5) Vacuum, mop and clean the house.
6) Iron clothes.
7) Wake up every night the baby needs anything........

So what do you think?

To the movies.

2007-05-08T08:45:00.000+08:00

I cannot remember actually when was the last time I went to a cinema to watch movies? Been supporting the illegal VCDs and DVDs peddlars...... I know.... I am wrong....

So last night at the last minute a friend invited me to a movie for free. As I was in a very not so good mood, I think why not? It was at Mid Valley. Ermm another place that I actually avoid! Cannot remember when was the last time I was there.....

You see I hate going to Mid Valley. I will usually spent time looking where I parked my car! The parking and the entrance to the mall is so confusing. Well maybe it is only me...... so forgetful and not that bright.....

Met my friends at the cinema entrance at about 8:45 pm. The show begins at 9 pm. As I was walking to the entrance of the cinema, I noticed so many familiar faces. First, most of them were from my industry...... (later on I found out the movie was sponsored by one of the Mobile Telecommunication Company).

Then I noticed Harith Iskandar, then the funny actor from Singapore (sorry I forgot his name, something like gazebo)..... As I entered the cinema lobby, more glamorous faces there..... Then I noticed there was no red carpet but a blue one instead.... and so many journalist.....

To be honest, I seldom watch Malaysian movie. But this movie has a Malaysian and Singaporean line up. Pleasantly surprised that the movie actually was done in three languages. Overall, I recommend that the movie is worthwhile watching.

It is a funny movie, yet some scene does touch your heart. It supposedly lift your spirit, but only a little bit. Half way thru the movie, a colleague commented to me, "Isnt that Pua Chu Kang?" Ermmm... I thought I was blur.....

Oh yes, I still hate Mid Valley. I found my car allright, but I had trouble finding the booth to pay the parking! It is near midnight, and I had to drive around that huge parking lot following other cars, with the same predicament as mine..... and I thought I was blur......

Excerpt of a long break.

2007-05-02T12:37:00.000+08:00

Nothing much!

1) Busy with the income tax.

2) Had a big misunderstanding with my gf.

I so want to finish my working paper on goats, which I did not manage to finish!

I so want to draw/paint.... well maybe today I will do that.

Let me schedule my life again! Tomorrow is back to work.... I just can't wait for the weekend! Hehehe......

You sure or not?

2007-04-27T15:32:00.000+08:00

Was so tired yesterday. Slept early. But somehow it was a restless night.

Maybe I was not happy yesterday, cause I envy most of you that was on holiday!

Woke up as usual. Somehow, I felt today is a Monday!

You sure or not? I am so bloody sure today is Monday@@!!!! Nothing seems right. From the time I woke up, took my shower, everything points to that today is MONDAY! Black Monday.....

Went to my first meeting at 8 am. I prayed that I will not be grumpy and spoiled the meeting. Turns out ok. Better than expected. But still I feel today is Monday.

Second meeting at 10 am was with the consultants. Reached there on time. Two of my staff did not turn up! Stucked in another meeting. Because today is Monday, I am controlling my foul mood. Surprisingly, I even made jokes in the meeting with the consultants......

Somehow I still feel today is Monday...... You sure or not? Yes I am sure.......

Punah Karisma

2007-04-26T15:24:00.000+08:00

Pada tika saat ini
Lautan badai bertiti
Detik perit hati
Hancur mengilap seri.

Mana bisa racun dusta?
Meragut denyut maya
Merintih pedih seketika
Bergegas panah asmara.

Namun masih ada
Lamunan Karisma
Ternoda di ranjang fana
Tersirat gelap gelita.

Persis di mata badai
Sebutan lemah longlai
Tertiarap terkulai
Mercu tanda kalimah
Bangun dari kerenah
Membelah hati punah.

Halilintar bergema syahdu
Halusnya hati merayu
Terbiar kelu kaku
Ratapan yang usang
Mahligai sepi gersang
Hayat terlepas pandang......