The Fat Lady Sings.

The verdict is out. The management is kind enough to give me until the end of this month to pack my things.

Looking at it from a positive side, Hey! I can look for a better job!

Let me try to remember how many jobs had I held all these years. ERmm.... 5 jobs. Not bad. I have gone thru the mills. Up and down..... There were times that I was really in deep shit....

But now, not really. I am still standing. In fact when you are down there is no where but for you to go up. And up I shall be.

These few days, or maybe weeks, just tolerate my "merapuness" ok? If my post seems to be short, I guess you all know why...... Expect more of my ramblings....

For Every Beginnning There Must Be An Ending.

Looks like this week, my status in this company will be made known.

What to do? I have not even finish "decorating" my new room. Actually I wanted to put a mirror on the pillar that was bloking my beautiful view of Kuala Lumpur.... looks like it will never happen.

I will try to take pics from my room and post it here when my "verdict" is confirmed. I have to admit I like the view and beginning to like this new place.

However what the outcome, things must go on. Will update again, when the picture becomes clearer.....

Cheers.

Boo Boo Part II

Dang@@!!! First round of negotiation, I hit a wall. First time I was using a not professional approach on company matters.... and yeah ... it blew back on my face.

Today round II of negotiation. Will stick to the agenda, focus on the real matters and see what happen? I am just getting use to my new room and new comfortable chair.... but my 6th sense is tingling that I will be in deep shit....

Well I have been in deep shit before....

In fact, I thought my head and mind gonna hurt thinking about this issue, but it did not!

Well I am just gonna try my best, if that means I got to find a new job, then that is what I am destine to be... hehehe....

When it rain it pours. It pours dogs, cats and summons..... RM 230 gone in 30 seconds early this morning. One speeding and one parking ticket! I find it funny, if I pay early, discount 30%. If I wait a few years, they might reduce 50% to 70%! I was driving company car and doing official work, yet I have to personally pay the summon. Maybe got to negotiate with the management.....

I pray that the rest of today will be much better. Let the bed of roses has less thorns.... better still, bed of roses with no thorns.....

Boo Boo Wachamacallit.

After 9 pm last Friday.

My phone vibrated.... (Yup my phone never rings....)

Me: Hello.
Wachamacallit: Inspector so-n-so from so-n-so.
Me: Yes how can I help you....(Thinking inside my head, who is trying to pull a fast one on me....?)
Wachamacallit: Is that DG from so-n-so?
Me: Yes inspector...
Wachamacallit: We received a report that your company have ......... blah blah blah...
Me: Really inspector? Our contractor must have done it without realising it.... (Now what? Is this real or what? The inspector was actually stuttering ...)
Wachamacallit: Please call back the authorities involved and the complainant. My advice is for you to settle the matter amicably.
Me: How do I get hold of you after this? Can I call you at this number?
Wachamacallit: You may call me at this so-n-so police station. As for so-n-so.
Me: Thank you inspector (How come I am so cool, but the inspector sounds so unlike a policeman?)

So the next thing to do was to do some simple checking with my supervisor. Ermm... it actually happened. I am lucky I did not berated the not so confident inspector.

Tried to settle the matter, but to no avail. The reporting party would not take my call or return my smses. Boss gave me 48 hours starting Monday to settle the matter. I have less than 24 hours left.

I wonder what is in store for me today? Bed of roses, beautiful, but full of thorns...

Crystal Ball.

Ever wonder what is going to happen in your future? Or you would like to know what will happen to you, maybe this year? In your career or love life.....

Sorry I do not have a crystal ball, but I felt like my future life flashed by on Friday. More of my career path. We had our usual board meeting. I am not supposedly be in the board meeting as I am not the board!!!! Hehehe....

For reason only my MD really knows I do sit in the usual board meeting. Actually become his "macai", running around for him, preparing for the agenda coming up or even answering questions by the board. Actually sat in the board meeting and answer questions that the MD cannot answer!

So last Friday, I guess my sins caught up with me.

The Chairperson of our company, actually questioned my MD if he has done any wrong doing in the company.......

Out of frustration a few months back, I told the chairman during one of my update session with him, about little little things that is questionable in the office. It seems he took it seriously and questioned my MD. He gave my MD 2 weeks to answer.

Guess who has to help the MD answer those allegations? No one other than me....

Remember I was the one who actually updated the Chairperson on the wrongdoings of the MD? Now I have to help the MD answer those allegations! WTF!!

Hehehe... that is not so bad. If I read the Chairperson meanings in between the line, he wants the MD to get him involve on the sharing of the "cake"!!! I am done for!!!

Been months I am so tension looking for a new job. Now looks like I have to hasten my plan.... or worst, the bosses will boot me out soon. Wish me luck people, cause this time I really need it......

Of MC.

Nope I have not been recuperating. Actually I have been busy with work. By end of last week I was already 90% fit. Got the topic today while I was recuperating..... hehehe... I was on Medical Leave (MC).

This is what I learn about leaves.... there is Annual leave, Medical Leave and Emergency leave. What set me thinking was that while I was on MC, I found out that in labor law, one is entitled to so many MC in a year.

So I sat pondering, what happened if I was on MC for more than that..... it seems your employee can pay you half your salary..... then after a certain period, if you are still on MC, no pay at all. And after a certain period you are terminated. At least that was what I understood of the labor law here.

To those genuine MC cases (I use the word genuine) I feel sorry for them. Not only they are ill (that is the reason they have very long MC), they can be terminated in due course. Life can be cruel.

Then there is the other side of the story. I find it very interesting. I was having conversation with a few different people that has this interesting idea. It seems some people that knows that in a year there is a number of days that one can take MC, therefore to them one must make full use of it, even if they are not sick! I feel it is cheating the company.... but to these group of people it is their right. What do you think?

Labuan Trip Postponed To July!

On the eleventh hour, I got a call from the Kementerian's Office informing that the trip need to be rescheduled as the Chairperson has an emergency matter to attend. Apparently his sister passed away.

There goes my chocolate ration for June. Ermm... got to wait till July.....

The meeting with boss enemy turns out well. Better than expected. The Dato was quite pleasant. Achieved all my target for the meeting, that was to resolve most of the issues that the Dato has been complaining to our minister.

The only thing I was not happy about the Dato was that when he tried to show how powerful he is! He actually told me, " I have powerful people backing me, do you know my powerful friends?"

I answered, "Dato I know who are your friends and how powerful they are....." with my poker face.... I wish I could have told him, " Any of them more powerful than Allah?" I did not say that, because I reminded myself why I was there was to resolve issues.......

Hehehe... The Dato thought I will pee in my pants... but I held my grounds..... Yeah just because KJ is backing the Dato, does not means the Dato is above the law.....

Even though I achieve my goals and complete my mission, I am beginning to hate my job. I hate power mongers..... I hate the truth about my own country.....

Action taken on the note to myself.

1) Preparation to move office 3rd quarter 2007.
Already saw a few potential sites. Boss wants to move to Phileo Damansara. The staff does not. So I am caught in between.
Action: Proposed office space in Bandar Permaisuri. Beside STAR LRT. Normal jam and available parking space. Wait for management response.

2) The boss making a move to dismiss the dispatch. It seems this has been ongoing (love hate relationship) between my boss and his dispatch for over 5 years.
Action: Proposed to boss to upgrade the dispatch boy into technical department. I am responsible and he will report directly to me. Boss already approve. Up to the boy now.

3) Taking over accounts from Main Office.
Hope to do so in July (That is if I can survive till then). It has been a tough battle, and this hopefully will win the war!
Action: Still fighting the battles.

4) Pow-wow with my boss enemies.
Why la so many people hates my boss?
Action: First pow-wow (Actually postponed once already). Boss enemy left for urgent meeting. Ermm.. what an excuse? Already set for next pow-wow. I really hate this type of pow-wow. I wish I have at least a pistol or hand grenade!

5) Labuan show down.
Next month we will present and know our fate in Labuan.
Action: Already prepared the proposals. Set the agenda with the chairman. Tentative show down on the 2nd week of June......

My mind is getting clearer. Tonight and tomorrow will be taking videos again. This time a wedding in Negri Sembilan. Yeah I am doing it for fun......

Have a wonderful weekend people....... Next week I am taking a long break over the weekend. Time to heal the battle wounds.

A note to myself.

1) Preparation to move office 3rd quarter 2007.
Already saw a few potential sites. Boss wants to move to Phileo Damansara. The staff does not. So I am caught in between.

2) The boss making a move to dismiss the dispatch.
It seems this has been ongoing (love hate relationship) between my boss and his dispatch for over 5 years.

3) Taking over accounts from Main Office.
Hope to do so in July (That is if I can survive till then). It has been a tough battle, and this hopefully will win the war!

4) Pow-wow with my boss enemies.
Why la so many people hates my boss?

5) Labuan show down.
Next month we will present and know our fate in Labuan.

There are more, but why am I depress when writing all these???

To plan.

I really do not understand when one does not plan ahead. I mean, the least layout a simple plan that one can understand and implement.

Case 1.
Calling for a meeting. Twice this week, we have been called by the "authority" for a meeting. One yesterday morning at 9 am. We were only called at about 8:45 am, while most of us are already in another meeting! Of course no way we could have attended....

And today, we were called for a meeting at 3 pm, somewhere in Pahang! I am still preparing for someone to go with the boss.

I do not understand, do they wake up in the morning, then only decide to call for a meeting? Does not even apologise for the last minute request, just because they are the authority?

Case 2.
"When the shit hits the fan". Damn gross! I was let down by my own managers. Some of them has this attitude, knowing that I will be responsible and will clean up their mess, they have this ability to hide certain issues, until yes......


I understand, even the best of plan can fail. But what pissed me off is that, when people plan to fail. Lack of responsibilities. Yet most of these people are high up in the organisation. I wonder how they get to be there.......

Sometimes I think, they have mastered the art of "eating shit that hits the fan", and goes about their life as if they are not aware or involve at all.......

The Presentation

Just a short one today.

Yesterday, we were called by MAIWP to do a presentation. No I was not pissed off that we were made to wait for three hours before we actually presented. Not to mention, spending more than one and half hour loitering outside the meeting room before someone thoughtful gave us some chairs for us to sit.

No, I was not pissed off.

Then the presentation itself.

It may not be the best. My respect to the chairperson. But the audience, ermm I am taken aback! Some of the language used should have not been use. It was a formal presentation! Don't we all know, for strangers, we are judge by first impression, and then by what comes out off our mouth....(my term either it is gold or frog)...

With all the silliness of the adults and colorful insults to discredit a human being....

No, I was still not pissed off.

You want to know, what pissed me off?

The charade....

It reminds me years ago.... no matter what department you are from.. the bottom line....

How much is it for me?

Sad but true. Now that pissed me off!

When it rain it pours.....

Looks like it is going to be a tough month. Billing and collection is way below target. The boss is edgy....

The projects to be hand over today is delayed. Tomorrow morning the whole team will be farked by the customer. TPC with DBKL is in the morning too...... So I got to split myslef into two.... I just cant let my team got farked... I have to be with them....

Issues with the Ministry is still not resolved. Hopefully when we meet the minister next Thursday, issues can be resolved. Some how I have the feeling, even my boss will be farked this time!

And that pain in the arse is still there...... Still trying to find ways to "kill" that company.... Why do I feel I am the one who will be the sacrificial lamb???

Thank God, tomorrow is Friday!!! Erm does it make a difference?? I guess not......

I resigned this morning?

Wow, my boss caught me off guard this morning. We went to see the mayor of KL on some business matters.

After introducing ourselfs, my boss told the mayor, "My colleague, DG, formerly worked with me and now has resigned and work on his own". I was taken aback for a while. That was not in the "script" that we had rehearse........

I guess there is always the first for me..... I have not been fired... but has resigned, where in actual fact I am still working for my boss. A good story line for a Hindi movie.

I am in a foul mood.

Warriors in a War Zone.

When I was young, war games had been my favorite. Whether playing in the orchard as the battlefield or those small figurines played in a miniature lanscape build beside my house... it was always fun.

Of course when I grew up, wars become something dirty. I understood, death is a huge part of war. Not to mention the sufferings and all those unthinkable atrocities that comes with it. No matter how diginified a war is, the casualty is just too much... compared to whatever positive values it brings.....

So for the past few days, I have been in the usual War Zone. For the survival of the company, we must defend our turf. And that means war with our "rival".

There is no longer a clear line, defining the good or the bad guy. How can I call myself a good warrior, when in the end there will be loosers? We are given choice, only to "kill" the "rival" or else we will be "killed".

The war has only begun, and more battles will come. The objective is to wipe out the "rival". Is it the only solution? Whoever wins the war, the casualty will be felt. Some will loose their job, thus creating havoc down the food chain. Some might even goes bankrupt..... some might even loose their mind......

I am feeling dirty. Its time to rethink of my future. Is it worth it? The war will go on, but I do not have to be the warrior in the battlefield.

Wishing it to be true.

Yeah I know its Monday. Yeah I know last week was tough for me! Not to mention it was hectic.

I am trying to lie to myself, that today is not Monday. I woke up this morning really thinking it was Friday. Not that I have been working thru the weekend, but was busy in Penang for a cousin's wedding. So there goes my weekend.

My boss called me up last Friday. Telling me the Jakarta project will be on. Ah, thats the one I am wishing to be true. I have waited for more than a year now. Of course the boss promised to put me in charge of it, but still, there are his partners. The partners might not agree.

I remembered five years ago, when I was supposedly called for an interview by my current boss partners to run one of the affiliated company. I was told to wait outside, and in the end, no interview at all. Somehow, my boss partner, a Dato' thinks I was not good enough. Yeah, a big dent to my credibility and etc. .......

Now that I am running another affiliate company of my boss, which the Dato has no interest, I feel safe. When I asked to head the Jakarta outfit, I thought the Dato was not in the picture. He was not in the picture as I recalled. Sometime third quarter of 2006, my boss told me, he did not secure the Jakarta project.

Then last Friday, he told me he is going to Jakarta this 15th of February to sign the agreement. So he asked me to prepare myself the possibility of going to Jakarta in March. Ermm... then he told me the involvement of the Dato. It seems the Dato secured the project for him. Well, I would love the job, but I dont know if I am in. Wish me luck people..... I need all the prayers from everyone.

But then again, maybe it is better if I am not in. The Dato has a reputation of not getting along with his subordinate, unless you are into politics or kiss his arse. Which I am neither..... lets see what happens in March.

I have never been to Jakarta. So I am excited if I can get to go there.......

Working Holiday

Monday blues was at its peak yesterday. Of course it started bad when Bears lost to Colts in the superbowl! Then the normal routine of nothing seems to be happening at work. Small issues that adds up and create lots of tension, at least for me.

The boss was adamant why the business development team was not adhering to the datelines? Why the project team is too slow in delivering their projects? Why I did not update him on crucial matters?

I did not even blink my eyes when I told him, he was too busy with his other companies. All report and updates were given to him according to his requirements. The projects was stopped under his direction. And who am I to overide him?

Fark! Time like this I feel like quiting. I can picture myself as a dog with its tail between its leg running away damn scared.......

Fark! Fark! Fark! I am not a dog! And I am not scared! And I will not run away! Today I will fight back those Monday blues.... as today is Tuesday ... It is not Monday!

And like a mother farker... I will make this JOB a working holiday.

Forgive my outburst today. I just need to let it go. Maybe tomorrow I buy a parker pen. Then I can be a parker man. He he he I will be a parker man in a working holiday!

To top it up yesterday, some asshole pickpocket me while I am paying my bills at the postoffice. As my number was called, and I was at the counter..... "Eh.. minta maaf dek, bil bil dah hilang...." as I groped all my pockets for my bills. Have fun you assholes, I will see you in hell! That few hundreds you got from me will not last till then......

Boring.

The second presentation was boring. Good thing about it was that there was no system or computer issues.

They only give our team three days to complete the proof of concept, so honestly, overall, nothing to be happy about. We can kiss the project good bye.

So, if we win this project...... Ermm... My boss, confirm, he got one big cable inside. In this case loosing the tender is a better deal in the long run. Why? Less headache for everyone....... but less money also for the boss.

Have a great weekend people. Cause I know I will. Planning to be by the beach, eating succulent sea food.

The Second Presentation.

I got to salute my boss. Last week we had a presentation for a system application with our potential client. The presentation sucks. Hehehe.... I was the "bidan terjun" project manager. So blame it on me okay!

To start off, the notebook or software made the application hang. From then on it just went down hill. By the first half of the presentation, the potential client team leader told us we were not addressing the tender requirements. To top it all at the end, we were told that we do not conform to the tender declaration requirement.

Me, being "bidan terjun" manage to profusely apologise for the all the negative things that happened. Realised by then we lost the tender.

A small glimmer of hope shines thru, when the potential client team leader gave us until last Friday to reply and update them of our shortcomings.

Discussed with my boss and our partners in the tender. Decided to ask for another presentation and asked for more information on their requirements. So the appeal and request letter was sent last Friday by our partner.

My boss must have someone big behind him in this tender. Monday I got a call informing us to do another presentation on Thursday. Yup today. Now I am nervous. Shall I puke this time if I f__k it up again? Hehehe..... I might just do that!

You are guilty as charge!

You are guilty of :

a) Not flushing the toilet or not fully flushing your shit.

b) Peeing on the seat of the toilet and not cleaning up.

c) Shitting all over in the cubicle and not cleaning up.

d) Blocking/chocking the commode with lots of toilet paper.

e) Actually doing your business perch on the seat of the toilet.


Therefore can you please :

a) Flush everytime you use the toilet and make sure everything is also flushed.

b) If you can, pull up the toilet seat before you shoot into the bowl, or clean up if you make a mess while peeing.

c) Please clean up.

d) Use just enough toilet paper.

e) If you must, do clean up your shoes mark or lift the toilet seat cover.

Ermmm.... I feel like I am the restroom warden.......

Come on people, use your common sense when using the public or common sharing toilet.

I do not get it!

Once its ok, but every week, whenever I went into the office rest room, there is/are a/some asshole/s who just left his "business" without flushing!?!

I wonder when he is at his own home if he does that? For all we know, he does .....

My wish for this type of people is very simple. Can you make sure that the restroom is as clean as when you first enter it?