Thursday, May 31, 2007

A note to myself.

1) Preparation to move office 3rd quarter 2007.
Already saw a few potential sites. Boss wants to move to Phileo Damansara. The staff does not. So I am caught in between.

2) The boss making a move to dismiss the dispatch.
It seems this has been ongoing (love hate relationship) between my boss and his dispatch for over 5 years.

3) Taking over accounts from Main Office.
Hope to do so in July (That is if I can survive till then). It has been a tough battle, and this hopefully will win the war!

4) Pow-wow with my boss enemies.
Why la so many people hates my boss?

5) Labuan show down.
Next month we will present and know our fate in Labuan.

There are more, but why am I depress when writing all these???

Monday, May 28, 2007

I am the preacher.

The irony of it all.

But foremost, I would like to thank all that has given encouragement and word of wisdom throughout my short stint in the blogging world. I sincerely and really appreciate each one of you for giving a boost every time my moral is down.

However, that is the wonder of God. Most of the time, I am the preacher, or some sort. Pushing my team every time they are down or facing issues (Just changing the word "problem" with "issues" help most of my team).

When faced with problems, they either froze or crumble. I am preaching to them lots of ideas, to better themselves when facing adversaries. Cause it is what we perceive motivates us to deal daily issues.....

So I am the beacon, to guide them in times of rough moments. Most of the time I am able to guide them for months if not for years. There are times that I let some of them down, yet if one persevere, all "issues" can be overcome.

So the irony of it all...... The preacher himself in the real world is at lost at times. Lately he is lost most of the time. He is very grateful for all the encouragement he got from all his friends here.

Thank you!

Thursday, May 24, 2007

One of those days...... (More often sounds like it!)

This down feeling is happening too often.

Feeling like I am loosing control over my life..... in the first place I never had control.... so just let go... let go.....

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Ha ha ha ha.....

Continuation on happenings last Friday. While I was making arrangement for my boss to go for the urgent and short noticed meeting in Pahang, he called to request me to go instead.

To cut the story short, we attended the meeting and the reason we were called was that they need a scapegoat! Hehehe.... yours truly for the first time (after many years) was caught off guard and could not comprehensively answered the allegations and questions....... In the first place, we were not supposedly be in the picture at all.......

What I think of the situation is that, maybe its time for us to be in the picture! Will request our ministry to back us up. Next time, if they blunder, they actually can blame some it on us!

Never mind, it is confusing me.... I am sure it is confusing most of you.... hahaha....

Spend the weekend taking video for a friend's wedding. I am not good at taking videos, and I do not edit them, but some of my friends will request me to take the videos anyhow..... Most probably because I do it for free!

Was transferring the video on Sunday to DVD format, cause I need to prepare for two more shoots for two consecutives weekends, when a friend accidentally off the power! I lost my mood then and decide to do it sometimes later. I wonder when?

I am in the midst of changing back to my own personal notebook, as I am returning the office notebook, because one of my manager cannot do his work without a notebook..... So that explain why I did not logon yesterday (Monday) and maybe tomorrow. What to do, the management approved the budget to purchase a new notebook, but the boss then thru his PA, informed me that the management will not be purchasing the notebook even though they already approved the budget.

Forgive me for writing senselessly. Maybe my confused state of mind......

Friday, May 18, 2007

To plan.

I really do not understand when one does not plan ahead. I mean, the least layout a simple plan that one can understand and implement.

Case 1.
Calling for a meeting. Twice this week, we have been called by the "authority" for a meeting. One yesterday morning at 9 am. We were only called at about 8:45 am, while most of us are already in another meeting! Of course no way we could have attended....

And today, we were called for a meeting at 3 pm, somewhere in Pahang! I am still preparing for someone to go with the boss.

I do not understand, do they wake up in the morning, then only decide to call for a meeting? Does not even apologise for the last minute request, just because they are the authority?

Case 2.
"When the shit hits the fan". Damn gross! I was let down by my own managers. Some of them has this attitude, knowing that I will be responsible and will clean up their mess, they have this ability to hide certain issues, until yes......


I understand, even the best of plan can fail. But what pissed me off is that, when people plan to fail. Lack of responsibilities. Yet most of these people are high up in the organisation. I wonder how they get to be there.......

Sometimes I think, they have mastered the art of "eating shit that hits the fan", and goes about their life as if they are not aware or involve at all.......

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Those years.....

Life was much simpler when we were a kid. I use to day dream a lot. My auntie had lots of these imported magazine. I dunno why, it was hidden under my grandma's bed, but I would flip thru the pages, and kissed the beautiful models on the lips........

I was 6 years old then! When I grew up, and remembered what I did, I told myself, I was already sick in the mind, since I was that young. There was no erection then, I was too young, but I do not know what makes me kissed those glossy papers! We do not even have television then!

Then I remembered somemore, at the age of 8, I started day dreaming about women (mind you not girls, but grown adult women). The word "marry" was constantly on my mind. I do not really understand what marriage was all about. I do not even know about sex! But the innate feelings that stirs in my groin was physically felt.

At the age of 10, I was already an expert making male and female figurines using plastercine. Surprisingly I was making them make love to each other. I do not recall anyone telling me or teaching me how it was done.

It was also during those years, I somewhat despise the opposite sex. I was more day dreaming inventing and producing flawless female robots. Obeying my commands and wishes. Yes, having erotic capabilites and indulgence.

When I was 12, after trying to "tackle" a classmate fail with a huge disastrous result, I somehow hates women. So my daydreaming focused more on making females robots........

Then at the age of 13, I was introduced, more like I was experimenting on masturbation. The pleasure of achieving orgasm was so wonderful. Without realising it, I must have masturbate a lot, that I forgot about the dreams of making female robots.

If I am not mistaken, only at the age of 16, I finally kissed a girl. I was madly in love. Learn the pleasure of kissing. We had "chemistry". Learn French kissing even without knowing what it was all about.

I only learn and practically making love, in the real sense, at the age of 21.

P/S: There was a darker side of me, which I purposely left out in this post. Frolicking naked in bed with older ladies, I started much younger. And those years of experimenting with sex also begin much earlier. The truth might not be acceptable by the general reader.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

If I can save time in a bottle.

Been working harder and longer hours to make more money. It is true money is not everything, however, it is a valuable tool as a "key" to open up "doors" and make life a little bit easier.

The funny thing about me is that, I work hard for the money, because I want to buy time. I have this notion, if I can have more money, I can actually buy time. Guess I am still trying to prove it. I work more and longer hours. Still the money is not there..... and my time is getting shorter!

Now I realise, time is more valuable than money itself. Now I am caught in a dilemma, looks like I cannot have both?

So I am back to the drawing board. Figuring how make to more money and have more free time.

Let me ponder more on my uncertainty of my next step......

Friday, May 11, 2007

The Story.

I got this friend. Knows him since I was a kid. We went to the same hostel. He had a bad reputation. Kind of rough and tough. With his toungue too (hehehe... ). Yeah he was kind of mean.....

He mellowed down as he grew older. I guess he has done most things earlier than most of us. Some of us would even asked advised from him, as he seems to know a little bit more than us.....

So one day he settled down. We would say that they were not a bad couple. Both are above average heights and looks. Some of his friends even say he married a model. Not true la, but the lady looks better la.....

What we gather, cause we really do not know what happened as we dont live with him! Hehehe... Was that he was the so called "suami mithali". Yes he did all the chores that I wrote in my previous post. And much much more. He was really trying to prove to himself that he could be a great husband, I guess....

Imagine, when they got the first baby, the wife did not even wake up a single time to feed or clean up the baby......

That was the first year of marriage. Then things got bad for him for the second year...... We (his so called close friends) had to rescue him from his house, for an all outing with boys now and then......

He was not allowed to speak to any women. Not even his cousin or even his own sister-in-law.... One time the wife was so furious, cause she caught him, having a conversation with the shampoo lady while holding his baby in a supermarket! The lady was apparently trying to sell shampoo la!

To cut the story short, what you think happened?

The last straw was when the wife did not allow him to go out with his buddies! Yes us! So what you think happened?

Yes he walked out off the marriage after two years..........

And guess what? The story from the other side says, he left because he chooses his friends over his own family..... that we know.... not very true.....

What do we learn from here? Marriage goes down the drain not only due to infidelity.... it comes in a lot of forms. So my friends out there, evaluate yourself from time to time..... Never stop learning and open up your eyes. We are only human...... that was what the mother-out-law said the day he walked out! (The story goes that out-laws too can break a relationship!)

Have a great weekend everybody!

Thursday, May 10, 2007

I am just wondering......

If a man does all these, is he a wimp or a good candidate to be a good husband? These chores is for others, not himself.

1) Wash dishes.
2) Wash clothes.
3) Hang clothes.
4) Cook.
5) Vacuum, mop and clean the house.
6) Iron clothes.
7) Wake up every night the baby needs anything........

So what do you think?

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

To the movies.

I cannot remember actually when was the last time I went to a cinema to watch movies? Been supporting the illegal VCDs and DVDs peddlars...... I know.... I am wrong....

So last night at the last minute a friend invited me to a movie for free. As I was in a very not so good mood, I think why not? It was at Mid Valley. Ermm another place that I actually avoid! Cannot remember when was the last time I was there.....

You see I hate going to Mid Valley. I will usually spent time looking where I parked my car! The parking and the entrance to the mall is so confusing. Well maybe it is only me...... so forgetful and not that bright.....

Met my friends at the cinema entrance at about 8:45 pm. The show begins at 9 pm. As I was walking to the entrance of the cinema, I noticed so many familiar faces. First, most of them were from my industry...... (later on I found out the movie was sponsored by one of the Mobile Telecommunication Company).

Then I noticed Harith Iskandar, then the funny actor from Singapore (sorry I forgot his name, something like gazebo)..... As I entered the cinema lobby, more glamorous faces there..... Then I noticed there was no red carpet but a blue one instead.... and so many journalist.....

To be honest, I seldom watch Malaysian movie. But this movie has a Malaysian and Singaporean line up. Pleasantly surprised that the movie actually was done in three languages. Overall, I recommend that the movie is worthwhile watching.

It is a funny movie, yet some scene does touch your heart. It supposedly lift your spirit, but only a little bit. Half way thru the movie, a colleague commented to me, "Isnt that Pua Chu Kang?" Ermmm... I thought I was blur.....

Oh yes, I still hate Mid Valley. I found my car allright, but I had trouble finding the booth to pay the parking! It is near midnight, and I had to drive around that huge parking lot following other cars, with the same predicament as mine..... and I thought I was blur......

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Excerpt of a long break.

Nothing much!

1) Busy with the income tax.

2) Had a big misunderstanding with my gf.

I so want to finish my working paper on goats, which I did not manage to finish!

I so want to draw/paint.... well maybe today I will do that.

Let me schedule my life again! Tomorrow is back to work.... I just can't wait for the weekend! Hehehe......

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