I thought I was gonna die.

It was a few years ago. After dressing up and doing some chores in the morning, at about 7 30 am I decided to take a nap. Meant to be a short nap.

I must have fallen asleep. I remembered dreaming that I was taken to a beautiful land. Everything was perfect. The buildings painted beautifully and in immaculate condition, the roads line up such as it were a painted picture with no pot holes, the meadow with the running stream so enchanting... and so on.

I was sitting on the grass field of that world. Yes, the idea of heaven slowly crept into my mind. Then I realised, that perfect world got no sound. It was silent.

I sat there seems for a very long time, but I felt at ease and in peace. Then came along a friend of mine. We sat and chatted. Talked about nothing. After nearly an hour of chatting, I looked at him and asked, "Aren't you dead? You died in an accident last year?". And he answered, " Yes."

My deceased friend disapeared suddenly as suddenly he appeared. (Yes he died in a real accident the year before). I was not alarmed. Slowly it crept into my brain... so this is the place where dead people go? Hey not bad.... such a serene and beautiful place to be.

As slowly as the ideas crept into my mind, my mind asked itself, "What am I doing here?". My mind answered, "I must have died!". A mild panic went thru my mind. I was just taking a nap, how can I have died? My mind screamed, "THIS MUST BE A DREAM.... OR NIGHTMARE!".

If I recall correctly, that so called dream was about at least more than half a day long......

I tried telling myself to wake up, it is only a dream. You see I have this ability, when in a nightmare, I can wake myself up......

Three times I tried waking myself that I am in a nightmare, but to no avail. Yes, IT SLOWLY CREPT into my mind, I have actually died in my sleep/nap.

Then the funny part. The moment I accepted that I have died, I woke up! I looked at the wall clock, and it was only about 7 35 am. A very long dream/nightmare actually was only about 5 minutes of my sleep/nap? That has always intrigue me. I have no explaination..... even until now.

So, this morning at 1 am, when I was awaken by a stomach ache, and as I ease myself in the toilet, suddenly, I felt like vomitting. I was about to faint. It was terrible, and I thought I was gonna die......

Dressed up quickly, drove to the nearest 24 hour clinic, barely stumble into the patient room. The doctor took my blood pressure. It read 110. The doctor told me it was very low. Gave me two jabs on my buttock, and asked me to rest there for half an hour. I thought I was gonna die....

I said my prayers......

Well I survived right? I am now writing this entry....... I guess it is not my time yet. Angel of death, angel of death go away! Come again another day!

Thank you Allah, for letting me live until now.... ameen.

18SX - Female Orgasm

Warning : If this article offends you, please do not read. I am not an expert in this matter and not liable for anything that is written hereafter.

Time for me to answer those questions. I hate Mondays, so I think I will answer it today. Now what was the questions again?

Q1) Can all women achieve orgasm?

A1) Not all, but most can achieve orgasm. Those that can't are usually too deep rooted on the negativity of sex. Some does not even know that they are suppose to have orgasm.
Note: For those that is in the 75% category (Please refer to my 25% theory general answer to Q2) you can definitely achieve orgasm!


Q2) Can all women achieve orgasm everytime they have sex?

A1) Possible.
Note: The more you understand and be more sensitive about your lady partner, the easier you can help her achieve her orgasm. Technics differ, most by use of the middle fingers and tongues while some awesome dudes they deliver with raw farking(KH I use your spelling for that forbidden word)!


Q3) Does women fake orgasm?

A1) They do. Please refer to some of the reason already answered by blackfeline aka KH (Kuching Hitam).
Note: However, men should know and be aware when their lady partner(s) fake. Men also should accept the facts that there are times men can't perform the best all the time.



I do wish that there are guide to make a women achieve orgasm. This subject I will ponder. Maybe my next topic. Maybe some of the ladies will blog about it?







Female orgasm frequent Answers & Questions. Would like to see KH start a forum maybe? Hey, I think it helps the world if more women can achieve orgasm. Imagine the world without wars....... he he he... I am too far fetch, or is it?




Now who can tell me how the above Gel function? (Picture courtesy of sexxtoy.uk.com).

Where to?

Most probably I will be to Labuan in February. So I am putting up these pictures I took on my last visit.

This first picture was a village by the sea on stilts. An it is famous due to one of its resident participating in Akademia Fantasia. Sorry I am lousy with names....... I cant remember her name.....



I like the mosque. Unfortunately I did not have the time to pray there. Maybe next time.

Overall, the village can be upgraded further for tourist destination. I dont know why, Malaysia seems to have lots of places for tourist destination, but lacking of tourism facilities ......
such a waste....



This sunset picture was taken from our hotel room. He he he..... I forgot the hotel name. I remembered it was cozy and the room are large by Kuala Lumpur standard. I remembered eating chicken wings and drinking young coconut at the stalls beside this hotel.

In February, I most probably will be in Labuan again. It is work related. Yes more papers to prepare, and this time The Boss wants some facts and figures.

Should be going to Penang too in February. A friends wedding. I was really impress by the invitation card. Pictures and a brief description of their romance......

Where else should I go this year? Maybe to Umrah in April or May?

Personal Preferences.

Went for dinner at Village View Bangi. A friend recommended it to me. If you are familliar with Bangi, you can get there via the Kajang toll exit on the KL-Seremban highway. Go towards Bangi, opposite the Selaman Industry. The entry is the road just before Petronas gas station on your left.

I ordered grilled chicken chop with blended strawberry to satisfy my hunger and quench my thirst. The others ordered fried chicken chop, grilled lamb chop, Tom Yam and Mee Udang.

The friend that recommended me there was comparing Village View to Yankees Hut. Yankees Hut happened to be at the same road, but just before Shell gas station (or was it Esso?). The friend told me that Village View overall is better than Yankees Hut, so that was the reason I went to Village View.

I felt like some famous food/eatery critic. Savoring the order I made, and even tasting some of what my other friends ordered. That is when I realised. Personal preferences actually weight heavy on our judgement.

Or maybe the cook at Village View was having a bad day when preparing our order. He he he this is my judgement:

Ambience : I like Yankees Hut better. However, Village View is cosy too.

Service : Village View was slow, but Yankees Hut was much slower.

Price : Yankees Hut a little bit more expensive.

Food : Overall I prefer Yankees Hut. Village View grilled chicken chop if I give a rating of 1 to 10, it is 4! The blended strawberry was just ok. The Tom Yam was too hot, this is by the standard of a Tom Yam lover. The Chicken Chop was below standard so was the grilled lamb chop. The Mee Udang was acceptable.

Overall : I PREFER Yankees Hut. It has a speciality of fried mushroom and it has private dining area where you can sit and dine like the Japanese ala Malaysian. Some of the private dining area are actually on trees.

Like I said, if you are so use to eating your Mama's cooking, you will swear that her cooking is the best! Something like acquired taste....... Me I would like to think of it, it is your Personal Preferences. Ain't it not the same when we choose our lovers??

Answers for my friends. 18 SX.

Too much work lately, and I don't have enough sleep. Was with the contractors till early this morning. Just finish presenting the cash flow to my boss. Surprise ... surprise... The boss accepted my cash flow proposal that I rushed to do this morning. So now preparing to present to the board members tomorrow morning. I am tired and do not have enough sleep. To top it all I am not done yet preparing for my presentation Friday afternoon. Ermmm... two papers.... Let me ponder....

Thanks HL for your comment. I never thought you will comment on my blog. Ya la, I have been commenting on your blog for years..... I can't wait when Ni-mu will start her own blog! Why I need to ponder on those question was because I am trying to find some answers other than my own.

KH! Finally I got you to comment on my blog. Can't resist the topic I assume? Partly written to get a response from you. Hey, overall I am doing great, especially knowing my angel is hovering near by. I appreciate that you visited my blog often.

Diyana, you can be assured old people like me do think in a very immature way at times. And definitely when you come to my age, you will be enlighten that there is a part in us, that does not want to grow up. Me, I am a coward, immature and insecure person. No, I am not degrading myself, but more of coming to terms with myself.


Ah! Now come to the answers. I hope the answers can give more insight to men in general.

1) Do men have a good time everytime they have sex?
A1) Yes in general, men do feel good everytime they had sex. Of course, discounting those that has ED or mentally challenge.
A2) In general, men do have great sex when they have positive chemistry with their partner (caught you ladies there, need not be with the opposite sex!).
A3) However, there are times when the foreplay was so intense, that the finishing was an anticlimax.......

2) Do most men only care to satisfy themself during sex?
A1) This is where my 25% theory comes in. About 25% of the male population only care that they are satisfied. Another 25% may NOT satisfy their partners. The other 25% may satisfy their partners. And if you are lucky, the rest of the 25% would love to satisfy you too. So do not bother to ask the first batch of 25% to satisfy you. The next 25% need lots of hardwork from you if you want to be satisfied. And the next 25% usually will follow your response. Well, the lucky one (or the unlucky one, see some people can be satisfied more than 8 times a day!) they just make a wonderful sex slave! So which male category are you in? Dont worry, after reading this I am sure you want to be last batch of 25% or maybe the first batch?

3) Do most men think about sex most of the time?
A1) KH seems to think so. Maybe it is true. I have been thinking about sex since I was 6 years old.
A2) I would like to think more of, when a man sees a sexy person, then the visualisation and fantasizing kicks in. Men don't usually think about sex when they see a beautiful person. They admire that person.
A3) However, there is a third eye on a second head down there, that is blind, but that second head without a brain does have it's issue of wanting "it" every now and then. Most of the time uncontrollable!

Ermm... I hope I answered my questions well. Anyone care to grade my answers?

Below are more questions, however, I will only attempt to answer it next week. All of you are welcome to give your answers meanwhile.

Ladies and gentlemen, here are the questions:

Q1) Can all women achieve orgasm?

Q2) Can all women achieve orgasm everytime they have sex?

Q3) Does women fake orgasm?

Cheers!

18 SX - Having a good sex session.

Hehehe..... no, today I am more questioning the topic itself. As I am no expert, I have to ask more questions. And maybe, in my quest to find the answers, I will learn some truth. I always wonder, if most that we heard about sex were just myths?

Q1 : Do men have a good time evertime they have sex?
Q2 : Do most men only care to satisfy themself during sex?
Q3 : Do most men thinks about sex most of the time?

I will begin to ask myself these questions. Maybe try to answer them from my own perspective view or even speculation.

There are times that I realised, topics about sex an intimacy were actually put aside or totally frowned upon by some people. These does not only involved the older generation, but also some of the younger generation.

Let me ponder on my own questions and hope to have some revealation soon. And you can bet I will have more questions! Hehehe......

To all : Have a wonderful and fulfilling sex life!

Visit to the hospital.

Yesterday (Sunday) evening when to a hospital somewhere in Ampang. Reached the hospital about 9:30 pm. Went straight to my friend's room.

Apparently he was involved in an accident a few days ago. Needed to be operated on. Broken bones, punctured lungs and some blood clot in the leg. He was in the ICU for a few days. By the time I visited him, he was already doing great, sitting up and able to talk non-stop!

I have to leave by 10:30 pm. That was when it all started. Like in a movie.....

Went to the lift that I came up from. Pushed the down button. It wont work. After a few minutes, I thought they (hospital management) must have switched off the lifts. So went looking for other exits or lift.

Found one nearby, just a few meters away. Pushed the down button, thank God it lights up. Soon the lift door opened up. Suddenly the atmosphere changes. I think it was because of my coward nature...... Yeah yeah I am a coward....

I parked my car on the Lower Ground level. So I pushed the LG button. It was kind of eerie, the trip down to LG. After feeling like ages, the lift door open. I was so eager to go out and get to my car.

As my right foot steps out off the lift door, I wanted to rush to the door on my left as that was supposedly the door to the car park. That was when things turns more spooky. At the supposedly exit door to the car park, it was written "Bilik Persiapan Mayat"!

My mouth was dry. I felt nausea. I retracted back my foot into the lift. If felt so slow! My pointing finger pressing hard and fast on the close door button. Then press to G floor. It felt so slow....... I did not realise that my breathing was getting heavier......

When the lift door finally opened at Ground floor, and I felt like fresh air gushing into it. Was I relief......

Took me a few more minutes to find the right exit. Greeted by the guard, and I asked him, why some of the lifts are not working? He explained that the main lifts were switched off by 10 pm. Then he directed me the way to the parking lot at Lower Ground.

From outside the building I have to walked down to the lower ground car park. How come the place was so quiet, my mind was wondering? Nobody around and the light was not that bright. I walked quickly to where my car was supposedly be. Saw my car, and I walked faster towards it.

Then as I off the alarm of my car, I most probably was so scared by then, that my head keep on telling me to looked over my shoulder. To look back at where the main lift lobby that I took originally, cause supposedly a few meters away was the other lift to the morgue at Lower Ground.

Man was I scared again! And slowly I looked at the doors that was supposedly going into the morgue....... it was thightly closed. It was dark, but there was nothing. I quickly jumped into my car, start the engine and off I went...... like a jack rabbit!

Hehehe.... I was scared.. and I am a coward!

Playing kite.

II had to the opportunity to play the kite today. Maybe because I do not play kite enough when I was a kid. Thus whenever, I have the time, I will play my kites. Actually I have three kites.

One have two strings. This one currently is my favourite. However, it is the one very difficult to handle. You can do acrobatic stunts with this one. I am not an expert yet, but I have seen two guys play their kites in tandem. They flew it in paterns, and it looks very well coordinated.

The other two are just like the one in the picture above. One red and one black looks like bats. Very easy to launch and fly. Sometimes when I am at my wits end, I would just take out this two kites and fly it. It give me some peace of mind.

I wish I can be with the kites more often. Well lets see if I can make the Boer Goats business lucrative enough for me to have some time playing kites.

Boring.

The second presentation was boring. Good thing about it was that there was no system or computer issues.

They only give our team three days to complete the proof of concept, so honestly, overall, nothing to be happy about. We can kiss the project good bye.

So, if we win this project...... Ermm... My boss, confirm, he got one big cable inside. In this case loosing the tender is a better deal in the long run. Why? Less headache for everyone....... but less money also for the boss.

Have a great weekend people. Cause I know I will. Planning to be by the beach, eating succulent sea food.

The Second Presentation.

I got to salute my boss. Last week we had a presentation for a system application with our potential client. The presentation sucks. Hehehe.... I was the "bidan terjun" project manager. So blame it on me okay!

To start off, the notebook or software made the application hang. From then on it just went down hill. By the first half of the presentation, the potential client team leader told us we were not addressing the tender requirements. To top it all at the end, we were told that we do not conform to the tender declaration requirement.

Me, being "bidan terjun" manage to profusely apologise for the all the negative things that happened. Realised by then we lost the tender.

A small glimmer of hope shines thru, when the potential client team leader gave us until last Friday to reply and update them of our shortcomings.

Discussed with my boss and our partners in the tender. Decided to ask for another presentation and asked for more information on their requirements. So the appeal and request letter was sent last Friday by our partner.

My boss must have someone big behind him in this tender. Monday I got a call informing us to do another presentation on Thursday. Yup today. Now I am nervous. Shall I puke this time if I f__k it up again? Hehehe..... I might just do that!

You are guilty as charge!

You are guilty of :

a) Not flushing the toilet or not fully flushing your shit.

b) Peeing on the seat of the toilet and not cleaning up.

c) Shitting all over in the cubicle and not cleaning up.

d) Blocking/chocking the commode with lots of toilet paper.

e) Actually doing your business perch on the seat of the toilet.


Therefore can you please :

a) Flush everytime you use the toilet and make sure everything is also flushed.

b) If you can, pull up the toilet seat before you shoot into the bowl, or clean up if you make a mess while peeing.

c) Please clean up.

d) Use just enough toilet paper.

e) If you must, do clean up your shoes mark or lift the toilet seat cover.

Ermmm.... I feel like I am the restroom warden.......

Come on people, use your common sense when using the public or common sharing toilet.

I do not get it!

Once its ok, but every week, whenever I went into the office rest room, there is/are a/some asshole/s who just left his "business" without flushing!?!

I wonder when he is at his own home if he does that? For all we know, he does .....

My wish for this type of people is very simple. Can you make sure that the restroom is as clean as when you first enter it?

A lesson in goat.

Went to see a goat farm on Saturday. Introduced to a goat, called Boer. Pronounced "boye". At first when I heard that name, I thought they were talking about "buaya" or "buaya darat" which some people pronounced it "boye".

First time taking a look at the goat and learning about it. Spent about 3 hours on the farm. I will try to relate what it was all about or my understanding.

A friend of mine wanted to rear goat. He has gone to see 2 farms, and was going to the third when he invited me to come along. It seems that I am supposedly knowledgeable in business. So I tagged along. Afterall, I thirst knowledge......

We arrived at about 9 am. It was a small farm. In fact there was only two infrastructure. One the goat shed, it can accomodate up to 100 goats at any one time, and the other a small shed for the sheppard.

I am a kampung boy, so the smell of goats does not really bothers me. Pleasantly surprise that the area and surrounding is not so smelly, but goat still smells a goat! However, there were lots of flies.

What intrigues me is towards the end of the visit. We were talking and haggling the price. You know how much a 4 months kid cost? RM 950.00 ! And the average price for a male Boer goat, like the one below, just cost around RM 3,500.00 ....... wow..... (For everybody's info, a normal 2 year old kampung goat now cost about RM 500.00).



A 2 year old male, well endowed with proven genes does fetch a good price. I dont really get it, but it seems this Boer has its ranking, whether one is a pure breed or mixed. Ranking was from F1 (imagine, at first I thought there were talking about car racing!) to F5. However, you may get more info on this thru the internet.


It does set my small brain thinking. Especially, when I was informed that the top line of a male Boer goat, like the one below, can fetch a price of RM 22,000.00 ! Now who is interested to rear Boer goats with me? Anybody out there can teach and give me more knowledge and experience on this??



So my friend concluded his deals purchasing 10 Boer goats. 6 kids at RM 950 each. 3 F3 females at RM 1,600.00. And 1 F4 female at RM 1,800.00, this one was supposedly a great buy, it was pregnant.

Overall, I enjoyed the visit and the knowledge I got was an eye opener. The goats were very tame, you can stroke them and even talked to them, like I did. I will be learning more about goats. Was told there are hundreds of goat species. Who knows soon I will be a sheppard?

Finally its Friday!

I wonder if the heart or is it the brain is stronger?

My heart have been in turmoil lately.... I tried to numb my feeling, so that I can concentrate in my work. It does not work 100%. Managed to do some sort of work, but I was not happy with the results. I could have done better.

The brain knows what action need to be taken, but the heart, it longs for that feeling, that special feelings. The longing to be touch and caress.... to be love. Enough! It has to stop somewhere.....

I need both of them to work together, not against each other ..... and yet it is difficult. Looks like I got to lock the heart in a deep dungeon somewhere. It is getting to be so disobedient. Bye bye heart, I see you again, when you have come to your senses .......

Why you slay this heart once again?

Lady!

In a nut shell, I noticed that you have this capability:

1) When I am wounded, you would deepen the wound and slowly pour salt water into it.

2) When I am mortally wounded, you would take your sweet time to slit my throat, watching my blood slowly trickling with the ebb of my life.

3) When I am dead, you would mourn me. Resurrect me into a zombie.....

It is a vicious cycle. One that must end.... or is there such ending?

Days of the Dragon.

Not a good way to start the year. Not a good day to start the week. Everytime I am feeling low, I will imagine the dragons. To pick myself up again, I will imagine slaying the dragons. So far, I have slayed too many dragons.... maybe its time to choose a different path?

A fool I have been. Falling in love without conditions. Believing that love can be so pure. Love in its unique beauty and splendor engulfing me.... only to despair within the unknown .....

Dragon oh dragon
Why do thee I slay?
Out of ignorance
Deep in my arrogance

Am I in a fairy tale?
In a dream so frail
Chaos sunders of nightmare
In realms of turbulance fray

Nay the rumour mongers
Shall I pray for harbinger?
Or die
In a spasm of love?

In a rambling mode. Weary and tired. I better sign off ......I

Issues of my heart.

Other than that I am a high risk person for a heart attack or stroke, my heart is in good condition. Well ... maybe relatively good condition.

I have difficulty in my love life. Hehehehe..... not what you are thinking. Afterall, what are you thinking? Gee... I dont really know.

Have any of you been in a situation like for instance, you are in love? The other person loves you too. The chemistry is there. From the moments our lips touches for the first time, instantly we knew we were meant for each other.

From that day onwards, every moment in our life is so... so great... so beautiful ... so meaningful .... and so complete. A couple so deeply in love. Everything was just right......

But....

Yes, there is always a but!

How come we cant be leading our life together? Why? All these years.... that question hounds me. More questions remains.... when, where, how? Yet we are still in love.... so very in love....

(Foolish) Knight of the round (square) table - The End

Later that day I checked back the sequence of event that leads to the boss giving the call. Apparently, D was aware of the complaint letter from the client a few days before the company received it. D did wrote an email to the boss, cc to me, forewarning of the said letter. As an F..K, I did not realise the full impact until it hits me right up my nose......

And apparently, D was made aware by the boss, of my complaint about D. D knows that the boss backs D up. Guess it was well orchestrated by D. No wonder D was so sweet in asking me to approve the content of the letter.

So what to do?

I set up an appointment with the client who wrote the letter. I decided to do the meeting outside the office and after six pm. Not macho la.... if the client decide to scold me at least not infront of my team.

Pleasant surprise..... the client was very apologetic about the complaint letter. If they know it involved my department, they would have not wrote the letter. They were aware of how dedicated and hardworking my department has been(kembang B___t_t!) and very happy to work directly with us. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Only God knows what when thru my heart!

Called up the boss immediately after the meeting.

FK : Boss, met up with the client. Settled the matter.
Boss : Really ka?
FK : Yes boss, and they will be working very closely with our operation people to solve all existing issues.
Boss : So why the complaint letter?
FK : That one you got to ask Business Development group.

End.

The rest was history. D took a long three months leave ending on the 31st of December 2006. On January 3rd, 2007 D resigned.

Was it because of me D resigned? I dont think so. It was D's own doing. Office politics never pays in the long run......

Jumping the gun?

I am a sucker. The person's voice set me into an unwanted uneasy situation. The person was a pain in my arse. Hearing the voice trigger some uneasy thoughts in my dumb brain.

It was a false alarm. The person actually came to the office to officially resigned after taking a leave of three months. What a relief to the whole team! Somehow I think I am one of the reason, if not the major reason the person resigned.......

I never thought that someone would resigned because of me. Who am I? When I looked at it from a different angle, I kind of look like a bad person. You know the kind of person that people do not like. Maybe that is true.....

The story begins when I got pissed off with this person. Let me refer to the person as D. In my view D love to bully other co workers the smooth way. Knowing that the boss like D, D would "request" others to do the work and gets the credit. How I know the boss like D? When I joined the company, the first thing boss told me, do not make D unhappy. If I have to choose between the two of you, I have no choice to back D. I kept my silence.......

So when one of the junior workers got bambooed and force to leave the company by the boss, I thought at that time there was more than meet the eye. Did my own interview, some snooping around. Bottom line, nobody mess with D. Apparently that unlucky junior worker had a sharp tongue, and was lashing out to D. D reported to boss and The End of that unlucky person.

You know what I did? For no apparent reason, other than unhappy about this D character, I first talked to the head of the department where the unlucky fired junior worker was. Asked the person can I take over his department? Surprise ... surprise, the person was more than willing to be reporting under me. Later I learned, the head of the department actually already saw one of the board of directors to resigned.

So that was how I became the head of two departments. A new kid on the block, heading two departments. Hehehe.... nothing to be proud of. This is not a big corporate. D does not report to me. D was the head of business development.

To cut the story short. After a few months being hit left and right by D, both departments under me gallantly stood our grounds. (Sounds romantic huh, like the olde knights of the round table?). Issues after issues our departments had to resolve, some were major issues directly caused by D. We are the operation departments by the way. Those that do the work, but gets no credit. Kudos to my great subordinates for their perserverance.

Finally, when the last straw was broken, I called both my departments and the head of administration for a Pow Wow. I remembered telling them and getting their blessing for me to inform our boss about D. Again surprisingly all agreed. However, everyone says they were skeptical and cautioned me that I may loose my job. I told them I am fully aware of the repercussion.

Just like the foolish knight, alone I walked into the boss big room. Funny, I did not feel small at that time. I was merely standing for what I belief in, and all the great staff of mine believed in. After pouring out my heart sincerely to the boss, the boss told me this, "Foolish Knight, never in this company has anyone been able to out smart D. D is cunning and have long serve the company. Sincerely I think you will loose to D.". Ermmm.... so it is true the boss is siding with D. So I was contemplating to find another job.

God is great. One find day, I got a call from the boss.

Boss : "Hello Foolish Knight, we received a letter from our client, complaining about a letter we sent to them. I was informed by D, that you authorised the letter?"

I do not know what got into me, I was driving then. I felt like riding a galloping black war horse as I answered my boss. (The olde romantic me......).

FK (Foolish Knight) : "Boss, I think you are using the speaker, and D is beside you. I want D to hear my answer. Yes, I was the one who authorised D on the content of the letter, but I think D should take the responsibility as D signed the letter."

A beep sound and some crackling noise. Apparently boss was switching off the speaker phone.

Boss : "FK I want you to settle with the client immediately!"

And the phone conversation ends. Thirty minutes later, D called me.

D : "FK sorry la, I have to do that. You know la the boss. He loves to blame others."

Very sweet talker this D I told myself. Playing the innocent person game. I answered.

FK : "I do not like the way you do your job."

Period. I pushed the red button on my mobile phone.

(To be continued....... "Foolish Knights of the round table").

I hate surprises.

Early in the morning at work. And I have not had my burn toast yet! I heard a familiar voice. A voice that supposedly not to be heard again...... at least in this company.

This voice belongs to a person that supposedly left the company. Lets say we have our differences, and this person supposedly left the company, at least that was what I was told by The Boss! Ermm .... looks like another cover up.

People that does the job, got sent off. And the management retain people like this. Never mind what the person did, but it turns the company upside down at one time.

Looks like back to the drawing board. Dont you all love company politics? Ermmm... not my cup of tea. But what to do??? The Boss seems to favor certain people... as I recall when I first join the company.... DG there are three people here that you cannot touch... If I have to choose, I will choose them over you.... and me? As usual, just kept my mouth shut. Who am I? His The Boss......

I just love when work gets so interesting! What a way to begin 2007 at work!?!

Supernova

Is it a new beginning? Afterall, all are only theories, backed by evidence and proof. Yet is it conclusive? But who am I to say, as I am not an expert in the above subject?

This is what I have learn in life though. What we hear we might misunderstood as the perspective of sound and meaning ranges quite vastly. For instance the sound of "bang" for those that has heard of firecrackers will be merely thought of firecrackers exploding, whereas, to those that is use to hear the sound of a handgun firing will hear and interpret it differently.

Same thing as what we see. What is proven to be a new beginning might be an end, or something else altogether. Thus the phrase "Do not belief what we hear and half belief what we see"?

The diversity of life and our mind makes living so colorful and interesting. Trying to understand it will take more than a lifetime. The lifespan of universe alone hides so many mysteries. If only we can understand a small percentage of our mind, I am confident it will help us in this journey of life. Again it is only my theory.

When face with an issue, so many times to unravel it or make sense out of it or to understand it better, I will go back to it's basic. From there maybe I can make some conclusion. Be wary that in the end, it is our own personal interpretation. Even if we get the ideas for the conclusion from journals or masters of the subject.

Before I conclude my blogging today, I want to touch on a subject that is bugging me over the weekend. In the matter of our transport or automobile. We should be joyous that the roadtax will be reduce. However, after consulting my underdeveloped brain, I realised that within a month those benefits will go to paying the new toll rates. With the impending rise of gasoline price, I wonder how long that benefit will last?

And I wonder what are our great leaders trying to inform us? We have a brain of a chimpanzee? Our beloved country is in the brink of bankrupcy? Or what? Again, it is only the theories of supernova! Does supernova really matters in our daily life?

Let us all pray that the year 2007, will be a much better year for all of us. I have always belief, one person like you, CAN make a difference!