I AM AN IGNORANT!

Yes, no pictures today. Yes I have not been writing for a very long time.

It just happened that end of last year, I went to a country that actually hurts my feeling, leaving me confused and empty. Yes empty.... and numb. It all started when I visited a Mosque, and listened to the Tourist Guide informing us of the history. The Mosque and its compound was a killing field.

My mind just could not comprehend. How can mankind, slaughter not hundreds, nor thousand but hundred of thousands, if not million of its own kind? From 1917 to 1937, hundred thousands (If not million) of men, women and children were massacred in all the major cities of that country. All because of ideology, race or religion.

This year, I visited another country. This time, I visited a former school converted to a prison camp. From 1975 to 1979, millions were tortured and massacred; babies, children, men and women across the country. I saw the pictures and felt nausea. My head was spinning. At times I am short of breath. Looking at those gaunt pictures of men, women and children, before they were tortured and mercilessly killed.

Somehow, somewhere out there, there are human beings, that keeps on  beating the drums of hatred among we humans, encouraging, burning the desire, of human killing or exterminating other human. Kind of sad, when these humans wore mask as saviors and heroes to these people and nation, yet, they were the mastermind. Those unseen puppeteers.

I pray for peace. Respect life at its purest form. If I sway from my path, please remind me and put me on the straight path again.

Why Let The Rain Spoil Your Day?

I was coasting in the rain with my two wheeler, when it hits me, why on earth I gave POWER to the RAIN, to spoil my day?

I love the rain. I remembered those days when I was drenched ... soaked to the bone, waiting for the one I love. The rain never bothers me then. But as the years crept behind my conscious, and unknowingly, I gave it POWER...

When was the last time you walked in the rain with so much love and energy? Never ending enthusiasm of wild imagination, making love with the cold music of rain, pitter patter.. pitter patter....

 Tomorrow morning, I am going to smile at my boss. HE will NOT have the POWER to spoil my weekend! He he he...

Same to you SOBs out there! Have a great life. Stop f______g yours!

Negativity plundering my soul.

It has been hovering over me for the past few days. Seems not to be able to shake it off. I do not know why? It came suddenly, usually it lingers not more than a day. But this time, it lingers .... and it lingers.

When it plunders, it ran deep in my soul. As though nothing else matters. The focus and the center of gravity seems to be pulling me down....down ... down... into an abyss that is kind of frightening.

I have locked myself in the room. Nearly 48 hours now. My blood pressure has gone down since yesterday. It hovers above 90/140. Lets pray tomorrow it will go down another 10 notches. Is it the cholesterol level also has gone up. Maybe the blood sugar level too?

Should visit my friendly doctor. Sigh.....

They say, when your job is done... it is time for you to go.....

VACATION!?!

My heart.

When in love, one must follow ones heart. A sage, jumped out of an article, once "said" to me.
I have been in love for a number of times. Followed my heart and got burnt. To be fair, I burnt a few other hearts also.
It always clouded my mind, when I followed my heart. At times I felt halpless, lost in an ocean that has no bottom or beaches.
But lately, my heart just could not take it anymore. Perhaps time for my mind to take over? Decision must be made. Not just pertaining to the heart, but other important matters also.
Like what?... Yeah, like what?
Guess only for me to know.....
However my heart is grateful that :

1. Financially I will be able to survive till the end of the month. If not till end of next month.
2. There are still people that loves me. Yes, you in down under.
3. Emotionally out, yet my mind still intact.

Well my under utilised mind, time for you to wake up! Lets see if you can do better than my heart?

My English.

Pardon my English. It has gone from bad to worst. Some say it, from bad to badder. Ermm....

I am not an advocate of English language, but I acknowledge, English has its advantages. I remembered a friend, that does not have any paper qualification, but is doing well in England, with only English as her tools to survive there.

The first time I met her, her broken English was so bad. But I noticed that she does not show any reaction when people snigger's or laugh at her spoken broken English. She just kept on persistently to better her English. She now speaks with a Londoner slang, but one can still catch a few broken English in her sentences.

As I say, my English is not perfect, but the degree that Malaysian graduates, especially, local graduates English has gone down the drain. Sometimes I could not make any sense of their sentences. So what can WE do about it? I think we should talk more in English. Encourage our local graduates to read English blogs, written by Malaysian.

Any other idea to better or upgrade the English language in Malaysia? I would like to hear your ideas and comments. Someone told me yesterday, to approach the government body, and collaborate with them to better the English amongst our local graduates. So I am waiting for your ideas and comments. Thank you.

Are they all the same?

 

I may have the least or little experience, but I like to find out from frens, and sometimes from strangers. Ermm bad habit.... but exciting. I mean... just discussing ok...not doing it. He he he... I wish can get more experience....

Just like us human, we are all different. We may look or feel the same, but definitely, there are differences in each of us. There is always a uniqueness, an individuality that set us apart from each other.

Even the partner we preferred differs. Some like it young, some like it matured. Some like their partner to be slim like current models, some like it hefty, meatier ..... Like a fren of mine like to insinuate that I loike heavier built women. Lets see...

From my little experience, I seldom can make my partner cum, just by penis penetration alone.... Most of the time, by masturbation or cunnilingus as I have wrote about it long time ago. Please refer to those links that I have highlighted.  

However, not long ago, I was caught off guard. Met up with this individual, who confessed that she can cum, by penis penetration, especially while her right ear is being kissed and caress! So there are women out there, that prefer and can cum by penis penetration alone. The down side, I was informed, that she finds it hard or difficult to cum, when her partner masturbate or "eat" her.

We just cannot have it all!

I would love to make love on the beach, just like the pic below...... U want?

To wear or not to wear.

I have not worn a wristwatch for more than a week. Why I did that, I really do not know? One morning, I just decided not to wear one.

For years it was my habit, to line up my wristwatches, and choose one to wear for that day. Now I have only three wristwatches left. The oldest has been with me for about 25 years. 2nd has been with me about 10 years. The last one, has been about 5 years.

I cannot afford those branded wristwatches. At times, it is mind boggling to me, to see someone wearing a wristwatch that cost more than RM 25K! Even one that cost more than RM 3K I think is too expensive, and can be dangerous at times.

But then again, if I have the money, I might buy one... he he he.... On second thoughts, no I will not buy an expensive wristwatch, but I rather buy a mean easy rider......

I really miss riding.... riding towards the sunset....

Getting back to not wearing a wristwatch, yesterday morning, I actually sat in a cafeteria, by a parking lot in Cyberjaya. At first, I did not notice. But as I start looking at the patrons having their breakfast, I noticed, about 50% of the men are NOT wearing wristwatches.....

The Four Basic Human Interface

Finally my quest is complete! I have been looking for the fourth interface for ages, and it is so obvious, but not seen or felt by me. So I hope this sounds and feels right.

Base on my 1/4 theory, major things in our life is always broken into 4.  When we fail to comprehend this 4 basic human interface, that is where we usually does not get along with that person.

This is just a guide, as some of us have 1 major interface and maybe some minor ones. Those that have more than 1 major interface, might have problems with themselves. Maybe now, we can understand, why we have split personalities and so on.......

1) Seeing.

Some of us see better than the rest. We understand and grasp ideas or suggestion by looking. Words we mostly used are, "see", "colorful", "look", etc.
We make decision fast, base on what we see. We are easily bored when others talked too much. Action is our forte. Hard headed. See that we are the leader of the group.




2) Listening.

We understand better by listening. Sound evoke positive or negative reaction to us. Words that we most likely used are, "hear", "sound", "music", etc.
As long as we do not hear a sound idea or suggestion, we may not be able to make a decision. We are great story tellers. Love when people hear us, and being the center of attraction. Best work in a group.







3) Touching.

In order for us to relate to things, we must feel it. Seeing and listening helps us to understand better, but being touch and caress, will make us feels much better! Most used words, "feel", "hot", "cold", etc.
Difficult to make decision if we cannot touch the subject matter. Very emotional. Out of sight, out of heart. Bubbly personality. Heavy mood swings. Works well one on one.






4) Thinking.

The digital person. We understand better with numbers and sequences. Detailed person.  Love to use words like, "think", "digest", "make sense", etc.
At times perceived to be a slow decision maker. We need authenticated facts! We are excellence in making detailed plans. Reserved kind of person. The unseen mover of the group.






So, which one are we? Can we relate to our family and friends better, with this knowledge? Go deeper and you will find the secret of making lots of wonderful friends...... InsyAllah.

Teenagers

A scene from Rumble Fish. One of my favorite movie when I was a young lad. Nothing got to do with the story I am writing. But the deep emotion is similar.

Met with two 17 year old recently. I have this habit of chatting up people and observing them and what they say. Two teenagers, with different background.

Teenager 1: Came from a family in Southern Thailand. He comes to Malaysia with both his parent. Apparently working as a waiter in one of the restaurant in Kuala Lumpur. The parent are cooks at the same restaurant.
He is still wanted in Southern Thailand for drug abuse and trade. At 17 he is already a pusher? Looking at his frail built, and the cleanliness of his boyish face, he does not look like one of those thugs. And yet his story is true.
Now a fugitive, running from the law of his country. Wonder what has life in store for him?

Teenager 2: Came from a well to do family in Sabah. Taking his SPM this year. Parent from well known Malay and Chinese descendants in Sabah. Live an easy life.
He dreams to be a lawyer. He is set going into university of his choice after SPM. As body built is concern, he is frail like the teenager 1. Innocent boyish face.
Life seems to be better for him compared to the teenager 1.

My thinking: What are the chances that this two teenagers will make the best of their remaining years of living? I belief, given the proper guidance and chances, both can excel. PROVIDED, they choose so!

Do you know what I mean?

When I said, "I am sincere in giving/donating this sum of money to this group of needy people". Am I really sincere? When, in my blog, there will be (tons of) pictures of me handing over the money. And I tag all that is associated with me. 

Am I sincere, when I said," I love you sincerely with all my heart". When, I gave lots of conditions for my undivided love. And I expect the same or more from you.

Will I be sincere, when I say, "Sincerely, I am your right choice to lead this amazing group". When, I actually paid some people to lobby most of those that attended. Not to mention that I paid for the trip to the convention for these attendees through a third party.

How sincere am I? When it is my project, I will mention my sincerity and plead support from everyone. But if it is not my project, I will be questioning every detail of the project, and find all its weaknesses and bring it up in public. If possible I will crucify the person that is SINCERELY doing it.

How sincere am I? When the person that is heading a great project is doing successfully, and there I am, being a SINCERE Devil's advocate, trying to diminish all credits due to the person?

Are we aware how sincere we are? The new generation, seems to have their own brand of sincerity. The spelling have not changed, but the basic meaning has.

Dicing with death.

Long time ago, I was informed that the Dodo birds were an extinct species. Will the human race be extinct too?

20 years ago, I hardly sees any motorcyclist beating the traffic lights. Maybe, there are not many traffic lights in our cities?

10 years ago, I can see some motorcyclist beating the traffic lights now and then. Perhaps they are late for their funeral?

Nowadays, I can see motorcyclist beating the traffic lights at every traffic light I stopped. (Of course, if it was manned by a policeman, they will not beat that traffic light!). And I wonder why do this motorcyclist keep on beating the traffic lights? Is this one of the reason, the high accident and road death of motorcyclist in Malaysia?

I have always asked myself, what can I do to curb this unwanted and dangerous situation? Maybe, just maybe, if some of us, in our spare time or moment, we take videos of this incidents and put it up online? Youtube maybe? Perhaps have a common blog manned by those interested to curb this foul happenings, including queue jumping on busy roads, road bullies etc....

Just thinking out loud. I am sure there will be some drawback with my idea, but if some of us put our mind together.... maybe we personally have the power to change these situations that beset our daily routine on the roads of Malaya......

MLM Sucker.

Does this face looks like MLM is written on it's forehead? I think so.... This week has been full of "Meniaga Larut Malam" meeting. This evening, another one of "these" meeting.

I think MLM is not bad, but those people that is doing it, either they purposely or misunderstood the MLM concept altogether, actually gave MLM a bad name.

Some of the MLM decided to reinvent their business. As the word MLM is now taboo in Malaysia (if not around the globe), these business has become networking business, referral programs, e-commerce etc.

As I said, MLM is actually not a bad business. Why? Lets start, why WE all hate it :
1) Annoying PEOPLE harassing us to join or promoting the MLM. These same PEOPLE promised us the Earth, Moon and Heaven. Do we belong to this guilty group, or can we make a difference?
2) WE (PEOPLE) have to sell, to PEOPLE. Most of us rather be online in FB or other social online groups, chatting and wasting lots of valuable time. Even just reading other PEOPLE's update do take some of our precious time. Why not use those online social group to our advantage and make the best of our very very precious time?
3) Its a Pyramid (Scam) as told by "experts" (These are PEOPLE). Does anyone noticed, that in any large business organisation, there are more supporting staff then, executives? More executives then managers? More managers than General Managers? And perhaps only one CEO being aided by another CFO. Draw the company organisation chart and it resembles a Pyramid! My God, that company must be a scam! And do we noticed that the consumers of the product or service users of that company, is usually so large? And these PEOPLE only purchase and use the products, no chance of making some side income.......

I can go on and on..... maybe some other time. I have been doing MLM for so many donkey years. Made some loose some. I have been doing other businesses too, like car wash, eatery etc. Made some loose some.
My conclusion, not everyone can do business. Same statement for MLM. MLM is just another way of doing business. Even in conventional business there are cheats .... so beware of PEOPLE. Stop blaming on the business.

What is a birthday?

I have reached a number that I tot, I wud have never reached, ever since I was 15. Well, I have surpassed my expiry date..... thats great?

Lets looked what happened to me since 2009.

Riding high in the corporate world in 2010. Only to be humbled.....

Lost my job late 2010. Still jobless till today. Now dont think that I have been sitting gracefully on my butt! I have been running around haggard, starting some food business. Failed or semi-cheated. He he he.... semi-cheated is a word I coined, after feeling being cheated by "partners" that do not have the intention to cheat u in business. But their action reflects so. Example: U invested some money and time to start the business. They even call u partner. But when the income is passed breaking even, suddenly, your partner do not remember, they have a partner.... I am left out cold.
So I have been some sort of consultant. And for about a year, actually working as a hard labor. It was a humbling experience. Burned under the hot sun, and drenched wet in the stormy rain. I was even a beach bum for about a month! Ooh some experience I got. Actually sitting and watching a couple making love on the beach a mere 5 meters away, passed midnite. And who says there is no topless sunbather in Malaysia? Not the type that lay flat on their belly, with their boobs hidden. This one actually flaunted her asset with her escort beside her....... Too bad, I do not have a clear picture. But here it is .....Still piecing up together what shit left is of me. At this golden age, even my shits has value.

On a brighter note, I fell in love on line. Not for the first time, but this one, got overboard, and went into my private life. Now am I in a mess? Lets see, so far I am happy....

An attempt ....

The desire to write, yet the mind is blank.

Been listening to the old songs... trying to keep myself sane. Yet the depression is too much. Or is it just me?

Playing the life game.

Still blank.

I hate this situation....

That moment in time.....

To blog or not to blog?

I am kind of happy when old blogging friend like Headwind comes by and say hello. The heart yearn to blog, yet there is nothing to blog, just feeling empty inside.

The past few weeks, I had headaches nearly every day. Doctor say it is migraine. Ermm... why now? Even now I am having this pain in the head, like the back of my head is being cut and open.

Maybe I should find the time to blog again. Just write whatever comes..... maybe....

Hey... I am not back yet! Contemplating....

Well maybe if I leave this corporate world, maybe then I will have the time to blog again.....

But then again, maybe it is just excuses....

Arrggghhhhhhhh!!!!!

Arrrggghhhhh!!!!

The other day.....

1) I was going thru a round about. I looked to my right, there was no car, so I went into the roundabout....... suddenly bang! I was sure there was no vehicle on my left.... apparently there was a motorcyclist who went into the round about from my left and cut in front of me.... Poor guy, he does not know what hit him! Serve him right......

2) Being a "victim" or being "responsible"? Anyone wanna share? Will talk about it soon. This topic got to do with a good friend of mine. Lets call him RES. Remind me ok.....

3) I am going into a 5 day training starting tomorrow! Yeah! I finished the basic last month, and I am doing the advance tomorrow! Hopefully in March I can do the Leadership Program. Yeah got to do with my good friend RES! Let us talk about this soon....

4) Met a millionaire and billionaire to be (She is the same person la). She drives a Merc Coupe. Was informed the car cost nearly RM Half a million! Man.... I can never afford that! Anyhow, I was so curious, that I decided to ask her what business she is into. Acting coyly, she says "sex". So my friends, who knows, soon I will be in "sex" business too! Hey KH want to join me do "sex" business in Singapore..???? Come on....

P/S: Will update more soon..... especially on "sex" business..... hehehe..... Who knows I will give income to those thousands that is being laid off.... ermm "laid" off.... Sex... laid... my mind is wondering to where many does not dare to venture!!!!!

LOVE

After living for so many many years, I learn that we came to this world alone, and we will leave it alone...... Oh what does this got to do with the topic? Nothing, just me pulling the legs of KH, she hates LOVE! ( Or actually deep down inside her, she harbors the feeling, needs and cherish LOVE?).

I am writing about life.... yeah my life.... how I found it and got lost... over n over again. Today dont mind my England and writing... it is what comes into my mind. I want to dabble, rumble and nibble what ever is on my mind.....

So back to myself. This was what I learn prior to 2009 :
1) All things u feel is because of u!
2) All things happened to u is because of u!

On the topic of all things I feel is because of me! Let me elaborate ....
See, if I am sad or happy or mad or whatever la I am feeling, it is because of me.
For example, I was sad, some (lots of) friends lost their job last month. I stopped being sad, and focus on helping them in small ways. Give them encouragement, help find jobs, hulur some dough where needed.... and this month most of them are back on their feet! Yeah!
I was mad, because my lady friend could not understand me, and wanted to kill herself. For the first time, I decided to stop being mad, and all is well.... (At least for now, until the next cycle.... Awooooooooo Awoooooo, waiting for the full moon).
So, I realised, I cant control others and how they feel, but I can control mine. I am learning.... to control how I feel.... and I think it will be fun.....

The next topic, all happened to me is because of me! Ermm this is tough, let me try to make some sense....
Most (lots 0f) my friends were retrenched, but not me, even though I am the most likely candidate... as company rule, last in first out. Yet I was not, cause I work to make sure I was not. My lady friend felt or did what she wanted to do, because I she thinks I caused her to feel that way, and in a way I was doing things purposely to pissed her off, so serves me right!
I woke up feeling good or lousy, cause I want it to be. Or I loose money today, because I let it happen. Or the train knocked me down later today, because I was not being careful enough! So what if a boat rammed into u in the middle of a busy highway? Is that my (your) fault too? Yes it is..... whatever happen to us is our fault, and whatever happen to someone else it is their fault! Hehehe... confusing..... let me learn myself some more, maybe next time I can tell it in a better way. Mean while, those that agree with my rambling today may give comments, those that do not agree, can say it somewhere else!!!!

Hehehe.... it is not my fault what happen to u..... I am only responsible for myself. The way I feel and what ever happen to me.....

Have a wonderful day my frens!!! My lovely frens.......

Common Sense - Case Study II

Is this true, what I am thinking? Tell me ok.....

Due to this car maker, more than 20 years ago, we Malaysian, can no longer purchase medium end automobiles at medium price!

After 20 years:

1) They still produce lemons. Sorry... they are producing better cars... but maybe 20% better than when they started... while other cars have evolved by leaps and bounds. Dont believe me, take a look at Honda City and Toyota Corolla 20 years ago and their equivalent model and compare it now!

2) They create plenty of jobs. Wow! But at the expense of around 50,000 people every month buying "cheap" but expensive cars. It looks cheap because we have to pay extra tax for imports models. The best part is, the same car is cheaper when we sell overseas! (Does not make sense! We Malaysian have to pay more locally, and we export better quality cars but lower price than local!) Now, there are in the news that the high end of this model, seems to be expensive to maintained.... that some state government is or going to change to more affordable Japanese models!

I am just pondering.....

a) If we have not embark on this national car, I think we all will be driving safer and cheaper medium end cars.... of course imported models, which will make some people jump on me saying that I am not patriotic.. .but hold on and read some more....
b) Look at the good side of more employment.... am I wrong to say, that actually if this national car was not born, the same numbers of jobs still exist, accept it is in the foreign (imported) car local industry... There will still be assembly plants for the imported models.... showrooms... etc.
c) Economically better with our own national car?? Ermm... I think we, Malaysian, have enough of subsidizing this national car! After 20 years, I am no longer proud of it's achievement. Sometimes I wonder... what achievement? Yeah I am driving one, not because of anything, but I can't afford the imported models... which if this car does not exist, I will be able to afford one. Am I making sense?
d) Is this national car a mistake? I think so. Look at the other national car, it seems there are doing a little bit better. Yet, I still believe, all national cars are not a good venture, after all, our population is (only) 26 million(Including the legal and illegal foreigners)! If it is really a mistake, can we please apologize and correct the mistake?
e) After 20 years, do this car still need government protection? Why not keep it as a memento, but let it be competitive with the other imported brand? Yes some smart Alex will say, other countries are protecting their automobile market too.... but look at how they do it. Better technology, advance machineries, superb handling... etc.

I think....

1) We should have a national product, but less ambitious than a national car. Some countries, make superb watches, or knives or electronic gadgets... etc. It still create a great economy and plenty of jobs. Be competitive in the global market. Better product should be sold to Malaysians, not sold cheaper to other countries and subsidize by local sales, which actually mean local are getting lemons and paying a bomb!
2) I love Malaysia, that is why I am writing this. let your common sense prevail. Just to look good, and you make your country men suffer? Yes, so many will argue, of all the great things that this national car have achieved (I wonder what? After 20 years, it managed to developed its own engine..... bravo.... to me it is like saying a chimpanzee managed to make it's own basic fishing rod, whereas, fishing rods maker nowadays have developed better and more sophisticated rods.)

My humble apology to those that still do not have common sense. Let all the bigotry be put aside. Have an open mind to all the possibilities to make each every moment much better in our beloved country Malaysia. Lets start to have some common sense.....

Common sense - Case Study 1.

Yeah I have very little common sense..... but much more than some people.

Malaysia have the highest fatal accident rates involving motorcycles. Common sense says we have to focus on:
a) Machine - the motorcycle itself. We want safe motorcycles on the roads.
b) Man (Riders & pillions) - Responsible, understanding and educated in the ethics of riding motorcycles.

If we can only make everyone understand, small motorcycles compared to the bigger (in size and engine capacity) are more dangerous. Therefore, smaller motorcycles should not be allowed on the highways. Yes there will be argument that says small bikes can be fast on highways. I agree. Last week I was driving at 120 km/hr, and a small bike of 110 cc overtook me!

Want to know why it is dangerous? As these small motorcycles are modified to go faster, but it is difficult to make them safer. At 120 km/hr, no way in an emergency that small motorcycle can stop immediately or abruptly without it loosing control!

I am for the people high up to reduce the tax tariff on bigger motorcycle so that it is affordable for most people. So that we can have more bigger safer motorcycles on the road.

Focus on the education and training of riders are utmost important. Motorcycle giants like Yamaha, Honda, Kawasaki and the rest should take the initiative to educate riders using advertisements, campaign, seminars and on the road trainings and guides on safe riding. Safe riding is not about riding the motorcycles slowly, but to know one's limit.

There are more to it, but I would like remind myself and everyone, have some common sense in our everyday life. Make it beautiful and safe for you, and for everyone!! Have a great riding experience!